stay close, dont' go~

((:

2009-12-29T02:47:00.001+08:00

IM MOVING TO TUMBLR!
ADD ME!

http://xiiaohuanglovesyou.tumblr.com

((:

miss

2009-12-07T02:04:00.003+08:00

i miss hugging you.
i miss having your hair in my face.
i miss your lovely smiles.
i miss your touch.
i miss the scent that you have.
i miss the sounds of your laughter.
i miss us putting our heads together.
i miss how you gaze at me.

trust me this list goes on and on...
in short.

i miss YOU!
D:

super long update.

2009-11-23T23:08:00.002+08:00

UPDATE!!

3/11 - school?

4/11 - school?

5/11 - school?

6/11 - school?

7/11 - powerhouse bahs...

8/11 - sleep at home i guess?

9/11 - i really forgot what i did on monday..

10/11 - school?

11/11 - school?

12/11 - school?

13/11 - school?

14/11 - daddy's birthday, rebel afterwards and my ic kenna recorded down by police thanks to some indians that wants to find trouble lols.

15/11 - slept at home.

16/11 - did i go anywhere?

17/11 - school..

18/11 - school...

19/11 - school.... after which i kaypo-ed and stayed back go see tales of the dark rehearsal in audi 2. help shoot shoot abit also lols.

20/11 - school was damn tiring cos i slept at 4 and woke at 7 when my class starts at 8. cabbed down to school lols. went foodfair afterwards. freaking heavy rain i swear zZz. afterwhich we went tampines one and tampines mall for a slight walk and jiayin bought her bear again lols.

21/11 - shot for iGuides camp. from 9am to 10pm. lols shiong sias~ xD reached home shower and headed to bed. tired like some dog liaos sias hahahas!

22/11 - woke up early. (!@#$%^%$#$%^&^$%^&*) went msia to attend some relatives wedding. grand straits restaurant. food so-so but the seafood menu was AWESOME to the max hahahas! wedding hall was held in a ballroom with estimating about 70 tables being set up. woahs rich sias~ xD ohkays then go city square walk walk + go da ma hua yuan eat dinner liaos and came back singapore lohhs.

PS: malaysia girls are still the sex! xD

23/11 - erms went jurong point for lunch. Penang food at Red Lacquer was nice i tell you hahas. then went school upload photos i shot for iguides. then had impromptu dinner outing with october mentors. funny thing was a "club" was formed LOL! who want to join ESU? xDD kkaes lahs i guess thats it. photos refer to facebook lols cos i lazy to upload here hahahs~ xP

2009-11-02T22:23:00.011+08:00

UPDATEE!!!

27/10 - school!

28/10 - school!

29/10 - school!

30/10 - school! went for lunch at pizza hut at tampines mall after much debate. hahas then some went home. i followed juanping and joanna back to school. joanna go do her things, followed jp go print his notes. went to cybercenter to slack then went home already.

31/10 - what did i do on saturday? ohyarhs, met jasumi and wangzhi at orchard go walkwalk and sunbian source for present for hongqing. from 1 to 5+ sias hahahah! all complaining leg pain already. then accompanied wangzhi home to change while we waited at the kopitiam. changed and bussed down to holland village. the rain was fucking heavy and we were stucked under a shelter. holland village then was like so near yet so far! lols. in the end we took a cab and went 1 round holland just to get to a place that was just 200m away lol! yupps. met evadne at starbucks and went for dajie's birthday celebration. Essential Brew. Quite an ohkay place bahs hahas. erms then last minute decision to club. Cabbed down to St James, luckily in time and no need to pay for entrance~ xD so yarhs. went home after club and macdonalds, reached home around 7.

1/11 - wahlaos i barely sleep nia i woke at 11+am. hehs bobian havta go airport send off my big auntie haha! then yupps erms went home. napped. went down had tze char for dinner. heng and jehian joined cos we ordered alot of food muahahhas~ yarhs then erms went home online then go bed liaos.

2/11 - erms. woke at 11 thanks to someone. then stone and online till 12+. washed up and erms went HortPark. kill 2 birds with 1 stone muahahhas~ took my darling dslr and headed there. luckily i covered most of hortpark before it rained cats and dogs. hahas i had an umbrella but i lazy use budden that place really boring so i whipped out my umbrella in search of a cafe and TADAHH! i found one! hahas had coffee and sandwich and decided to move abit after slacking. so yarhs waited till rain went down to a drizzle and went back home. that is after i went queensway and anchorpoint to walk around lahs. wanted to eat icecream from mac budden the machine breakdown. FML! i want my icecream lahhhss! OH YA MY FRIDGE GOT ICECREAM! OMG! TATA I GO EAT LIAOS! xDD

+++++
MY FAV SHOT OF THE DAY!
:D

updatee

2009-10-26T23:32:00.003+08:00

just a quick update.
hahas erms i shall start on the 19th of october.

19/10 - went school find mentors for lunch, find sihui slacked awhile at holland v after that (omg i miss cold rock), then find jasumi and wangzhi for movie and dinner at jurong point and headed home.

20/10 - school officially starts. nothing much happened.

21/10 - another day of school. had tea appreciation for mentors of october intake. no cds tut so slacked with them somemore. then headed home already.

22/10 - another day of school. went shopping after school then headed home.

23/10 - 4 hrs of boring lab from 8am-12pm. omg so early wake up + 4 hours of boring lab can die siolxzs! after that headed to buy my DSLR. :D

24/10 - had dimsum in the morning. then erms went to peninsula to buy my uv filter + lcd protector. 3" is too small for the lcd, needa go get a bigger one soon. went home showered and changed and went with my brother to celebrate birthday with his friends. Villa Bali at Gilman Village. Had free flow of food and free flow of alcohol till 1+am. Then went to stjames to club till morning.

25/10 - reached home from club. shower and went to uncle's house for his wedding. wahlaos tired i can tell you. helped him take photos with my new toy hahas. all the way till ike 11+pm. hahas can die i tell you hehs! so yarhs. sleep. oh yarhs. happy birthday to myself (:

26/10 - slept till 4pm then i woke up. had brunch lols. then erms slacked around, uploaded photos to facebook. dinner. shower. and online till now lor. hehs.

ohkays i think thats it bahs. (:

summary

2009-10-18T16:42:00.002+08:00

i know i very long no update liaos so i shall give a brief summary! xD

5/10 - slacked at home
6/10 - went BZE camp/kenna food poisoning
7/10 - still in BZE camp/ stomach still pain
8/10 - end of camp/ reached home sleep
9/10 - woke up at around late afternoon/slacked at home
10/10 - weighed myself/had the biggest shock of my life/ lost 9kgs/then i went stjames for clubbing/drank alcohol and it burnt my stomach cos i still recovering from food posioning hahahah~
11/10 - slacked at home
12/10 - slacked at home
13/10 - slacked at home
14/10 - went school for refresher course
15/10 - took care of a class of International Indian Students as mentor. FUN I TELL YOU! was different of what i expected hahas.
16/10 - day 2 of taking care of them and yupps ended camp
17/10 - slacked at home
18/10 - today will be spent slacking at home also xD

MONDAY NO SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!
xDD

2009-09-30T18:48:00.002+08:00

omg i slept for 12 hours after sleeping for 2 hours ytd hahas.
ytd was finally a day in which i went out after dont know how many days i've spent sleeping at home LOL!
yarhs was supposed to report to school at 10am for some camp breifing.
i wanted to sleep till 8am budden i fell asleep at 8am..
=.=
i woke at 10 when im supposed to be in school rofl.
cabbed down to school $15.
reached collect indem form can go liaos wtf?!
slacked around in school for abit.
went tamp mall for lunch with keng boon.
he didnt wanted to go for the interaction thingy.
so ya lunch, exchanged ezlink card.
cb the queue damn fucking long i swear lols.
he loiter around and i bussed to hougang find fred.
then went town with fred and py.
walked around ion with fred while py had her pedi/medicure.
walked to Cine for Phobia2.
hahas yarhs like what the reviews said,
its like paying to watch the last clip HAHA!
yarhs and the zombie part was lame lahs seriously.
=.=
ohkays so after movie went Cyberdome L4D!
HAHAHAHHA!
ly came along and we went for dinner/supper.
yupps yong tau foo near tiongbahru plaza there..
hmms yupps after that was home sweet home..
played comp for abit till 4am?
fell asleep at 5am and woke up at 5pm..
how nice (:
yarhs..

prawning

2009-09-17T03:59:00.005+08:00

TSK!
im so not letting my blog go dead ohkays der!
im just lazy to upload and blog only hahahas.
blehhs..

its 4am now.
just came home from prawning with fred..
hahas fun luhhs!
jio me out for more prawning kaes you all!
xD

yarhs here's our catch and erms some kitty over there in which we fed it high cholesterol prawn heads, which it delightfully ate it hahas!
cute siolxzs!

and and some camwhore xP
i LOVE my round eyes luhhs..
dont ya?
:D

2009-09-09T16:35:00.002+08:00

yupps..
finally i posted something i know..
LOL!
cant help it lahs..
been lazing around during the holidays hahas!
and another reason is cos todays..

09/09/09!

hahahahhas!
yarhhs..

xzc

2009-08-14T01:29:00.000+08:00

We could have been so good together..
We could have lived this dance forever..
But now who's gonna dance with me?
Please stay..

zxc

2009-08-12T00:51:00.002+08:00

别管以后将如何结束
至少我们曾经相聚过
不必费心地彼此约束
更不需要言语的承诺
只要我们曾经拥有过
对你我来讲已经足够
人的一生有许多回忆
只愿你的追忆有个我

i swear im so in love with this song..
just nice for the emo me..
and the new hair (if u saw),
is for the crazy emo me..
HAH!
i do crazy things to my hair when im emo..
(:

if i don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?

asdasdasdasd

2009-08-09T01:14:00.002+08:00

hahas sians wee finally left with 1 prog proj!
tmr chiong monday chiong!
xDD
tues labtest.
wed hand in proj..
thurs labtest..
then
FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!
ahhs omg cant wait cant wait!
xDD

after which holidays im so gonna sleep at home man!
i need my rest! like seriously!
T_T

yarhs had a fun day today bahs..
picnic-ing..
laming around..
henderson waves-ed
hahahah!
:P

nth

2009-08-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

was that a spark?
or was it just a figment of my imagination..
idk

yawns~

2009-07-11T21:50:00.002+08:00

recently wasting alot of money hahahs!
transformers..
ice age 3..
20th century boys part 2...
hahas and i think harry potter next week!
OMG I CANT WAIT!
BUDDAYE!
dont forget about our date-to next friday hor!~
hahahahahs!
:PP

hmmms sianz luhhs..
life is getting from boring to fucking boring..
schoool..
projects..
assignments..
travelling to schooool...
travelling home..
all super boring stuffs to do..
yet im doing it like almost everyday..
haish..

yarhs yarhs yarhs.
tired..
real tired...........
):

O_O

2009-07-05T16:53:00.002+08:00

i think i need liver dialysis..
too much alcohol intake already..
can seriously shorten my lifespan..
haish..

hahas friday night met meihsin and lois at ikea for hotdog dinner..
was a last minute decision cos i woke up at 5pm and i was craving for hotdog as well hahahas!
so smsed the both of them for hotdogs!
weeeeeeeeeeee~
so yarhs after we ate we when ikea slack..
took alot of pencils and photos hahahas!
yarhs then we went "fengshui" slack..
its a place with "feng"(wind) and "shui"(swimming pool)..
thus the name hahahs!
i brought my laptop down..
lois brought her vodka down..
YAY!
so we webcammed, chatted, etc etc then lois sent mh and i home..
then yarhs the kick from the vodka came in cos i practically gulped the small tumbler of it down LOL!
and to make things worst i was running and walking around downstairs cos i saw my bro and gang hahahah!
so yeahs i was swaying left and right now and then..
finally it came to the extent there was big spins and i forced myself to go shower and sleep hahahahahs!
and i woke up the next day still swaying like a tree in the breeze lols!
blahs whatever, rushed my assignment despite my headache and headed to pasir ris..

it was kaiming's birthday chalet..
i ended up the only ITE-BL friend who turned up..
KAIMING! SEE I BROTHER OK! xD
yarhs played cards..
played 5 10..
kept drinking before even the cake cutting started..
then yarhs cut cake and continued drinking..
then erms some go watched transformers..
then his other friends made him drunk..
joke i tell you..
finally he fell asleep and i went shower..
then went out slacked, luckily the rest came back from movie liaos..
HAHAHA then we continued drinkin again LOL!
chivas, martell, vodka, beer hahahahhahaas!
one guy over there said his liver need microscope before it can be seen liaos hahhas!
i think mine also same soon liaos bahs hahahahs!
yarhs then finished seriously alot liaos..
they all went to bed..
i then waited for 6am and cabbed home..
so can skip midnight charge hahas!
but it still cost me $18 anyways hahahha!
yarhs so..
shall wait for photos from kaiming liaos..
:D

pain

2009-06-30T00:02:00.003+08:00

this pain is for real..
and i suppose its gonna be around me for some time..
im trying to make it go away but to no avail..
im gasping for air..
and im exhausted..
really exhausted..

sleepless nights..
nights of tearing..
its been so long, i shouldnt have let you in the first place..

and fuck it, i pulled my left arm tendon again..
was tired till my arm gave way..
i cant even lift my bag now..
migraines are hurting my head so badly..
i cant even have a proper nights rest to get the pain out of my head..
everyone's giving me nonsense..
haish..

im at my limit..
my false front cant hold out anymore..
and i mean it..

cuts hurts, but at least they take my mind off things for awhile..
((:

haish

2009-06-23T00:28:00.002+08:00

been running from this feeling for so long..
telling my heart that i dont need it..
pretending that i was better off alone..
but i know that its just a lie..
so afraid to take a chance again..
so afraid of what i feel inside..

but i need to be next to you!

:)

2009-06-17T01:10:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
JESSSSSSS!
:D:D

enjoy your day ya!
sorry i couldnt get you anything..
T_T

^^

2009-06-14T23:11:00.002+08:00

HAHA!
kinda last minute thing lahs but ya..
met jasmine at qt mrt to go IT Fair tgt..
then walked around lols..
the fair fucking alot of people lahs hahahs!
expected lahs cos it was the last day lols~

so yarhs soon it was 4.30..
we 2 went and meet up with the rest of jas friends..
so yarhs all were here and we walked over to Swissotel..
the one at city hall de..
then a LIMOUSINE came...
we were like,
IS THAT OUR LIMO?
hhahas it apparently is LOL!
imagine 11 of us suddenly walk inside the hotel lobby and got into the limousine..
those passerby faces all stunned de sias lOL!
:X:X

yeahs so we had like a ride round orchard road..
mind you.. ORCHARD ROAD! LOL!
the expressions on the people on the streets are priceless i tell you!
hahahahahas!
xDDDD
so yarhs we then arrived at the destination..
limo driver opened door for us..
photographers welcomed us with flashes..
those in the queue had their jaws down LOL!
:X:X

hahas blahs whatever i shall skip the priority entrance and the OTOT part lololols..
so yarhs waiting for the concert to start inside can really kill..
it was supposed to start at 7..
the thing somehow dragged till 8 or smthing lols..
yarhs she then came out..
performed about 6 songs or smthing..
then ended le..
lucky draw was a failure..
no one got in from the winner's group hahas!
yarhs then all left..
jas parents fetched me home..
yarhs and i guessed thats it lolols..

PS: PHOTOS WHEN IM FREE.. ELSE REFER TO MY FACEBOOK PROFILE! :D

tired...

2009-06-12T21:53:00.003+08:00

the exhaustion is taking effect on me..
to my surprise,
i woke at 5pm today..
which is rare cos i didnt stay up for 2 nights for me to sleep more than 12 hours..

i guess..
im just plain exhausted..
mentally..
and physically..
its slowly taking its toll on me..

how nice it is being able to sleep for long hours..
how i wonder, what it feels like being able to sleep..
and NOT wake up..
i really wonder how that feels ehs?
HEH..

haish..
it hurts so much..
so much so i've forgotten how it feels like to be hurt again..
i just don't know myself anymore..

lol

2009-06-11T15:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY
BIRTHDAY
LOISY!

NI
LAO
LE!
:D

((:

haish..

2009-06-10T22:01:00.003+08:00

ok so now what?
term tests are over..
term break is here..
but whats with the projects???
i just dont get it..

and in case you think im dumb..
and didnt even notice the change..
think again i advise the lot of you..
retribution happens..
this i assure you..

dont force the dormant side of me out again..
make the nonchalent me remain..
you guys wont want to see the other me..
trust me..

HAISH!

hmmmmmmmmmmms..
went out with jes to the zoo ytd..
met her around 10+ at cck to bus in..
yupps..
hahahahahs kept disturbing her..
saying her relatives are the pigs and lets go visit them!
:X
zoo changed alot lahs..
the kids zone become more..
erms neat?
yarhs even the KFC is renovated lols..
sadly my pet iguana is up on the tree..
he refused to come down and let me sayang him..
stupid thing kept lying there high up on the branch..
soaking up the sun the whole day..
TSK!
yarhs so we walked and walked and walked..
practically walked the whole zoo lahs but we skipped some monkey exhibits..
she finds primates so not cute lolols..
some are still ok to me lahs, but most dont appeal to me..
AMPHIBIANS AND REPTILES INTEREST ME MOST!
NYAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHS!

so yupps..
zoo was closing..
we left..
bussed back to cck..
walked around lot1 for awhile..
the weather outside was murderous i tell you..
its so nice being in an air-conditioned place!
hahas walk walk walk then we saw MOF(Ministry Of Food)~
i was like attracted to the icecream budden had second thoughts lahs..
check out the pricing 1st before deciding..
yarhs before i could do so she dragged me in liaos..
she even treated to me to my strawberry sundae lahs!
refused for me to pay..
so fierce~
hehs but thanks huhs jes!((:

yarhs so walked around..
then trained to causewaypoint and continues walking around..
wanted to play arcade but didnt so we observed people playing for awhile lor..
then walked her home..
slacked under block abit and she went home le..
and i did something stupid..
i walked to admiralty station..
the distance betwen woodlands and admiralty is FAR APART i tell u..
dont know why i headed there lahs!
961 goes the other way lor omg noobshit me..
heng managed to get back to woodlands int at 11.30..
thought the last bus went off cos queue empty..
but i must really count my blessings lahs!
the last bus came and i bussed home..
hehs yarhs slacked abit and after failed attempt at driving SOMEONE to sleep..
i went to sleep liaos..
haish..

and maybe you're right..
you think lots of nonsense if you're alone..
tsk...

yawns

2009-05-31T21:40:00.002+08:00

OH MY TIAN!
tmr's Networking Infrastructure de paper liaos!
whole day of studying is making my brain networked!
T_T
Router(config)#ip route 0.0.0.0 0.0.0.0
X_X

hahahahhas!
i just did something insane..
was feeling hungry,
then found leftover rice and chicken in the fridge..
took some cheese..
mixed it together on a plate..
microwaved the goddamned thing!
and...
TADAHHH!!
insant baked rice LOLOL!
:XXX

ok..
enough of crapping...
i hall go stone for awhile then continue my networking again..
Router(config)#router rip
Router(config-router)# network 192.168.1.1
YAWNS...............

$$$$$$$$

2009-05-30T22:47:00.004+08:00

food hygiene's term test paper was...
fucking easy..
gave away 3 marks cos i didnt bother to study for it..
hahahahah!
blahs whatever..
today i have been a kind soul again..
donated tons of money to the bus and train company..

1 train from queenstown to bedok..
1 bus from bedok to school..
1 bus from school to tampines int..
1 train from tampines to boon lay..
1 bus from boon lay int to bt timah..
1 bus from bt timah to home..

lols i love the bus ride from boon lay to bt timah the most!
a sweet smelling lovely lady was beside me the entire journey!
smells heavenly hahahahah!
chio also siols~
almost didnt wanna get down the bus lolols!
:X

ohya i went and "jian bao" my hair..
kinda thick very hard to fluff it up..
keeps coming down.. &&!
i trimmed my bangs as well..
hahas omg cute! :X
ok bhb =.=

damn didnt get the present..
not enough money...........
AND AND CANON 450D costs 1199 at Courts!
i shall wait for the price during IT fair..
shall see what freebies they give...
and decide again........

HAISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2009-05-28T21:32:00.002+08:00

your scent still lingers around me
thats something i can confirm
hopefully it stays that way...

yarhs ok sians whatever..
heng was not marked late for todays lesson..s
stupid 69 always dont want to come at the stipulated time one..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
lessons was ok..
the sians part is tmd alot of assignments and projects to be done during the term break.. might as well not give term break right? haish..

and i think i donated alot of money to the bus and train company today..
1 train from queenstown to bedok..
1 bus from bedok to school..
1 bus school to tampines int..
1 bus tampines to woodlands int..
1 bus from woodlands int to home..
keep dozing on the buses to and fro..
im freaking exhausted already..

term tests starts on saturday..
like wtf?
args!
=.=
i need to study..
i already failed i think almmost all quizzes..
term tests at least must pass arhs!
haish..
boringggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg life i lead..

and hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmms..
her birthdays coming..
what should i buy?
DECIDE JONATHAN DECIDE!
arghs!!

:D

2009-05-19T23:25:00.005+08:00

i trimmed my bangs with a pair of scissors just now..
getting abit long..
looks nicer now i guess..

hmmms damn bored of life seriously..
2 quizzes, 1 assignment, 1 presentation down..
2 reports, 1 quiz and many term tests papers to go..
goddammit!

i love this cat..
its freaking big and quite an old cat already..
LAO DA lai de cos all the small cats stay away from it..
has tiger stripes somemore!
<3

yawns

2009-05-18T01:09:00.002+08:00

aitakute aitakute..
hoshi no kazu no yoru wo koete..
itsumademo itsumademo..
kimi wa kitto boku no hikari..

funlab!

2009-05-14T23:33:00.009+08:00

1st time i found Internet Appliances lab to be fun!
we code a program to allow an interface to pop up so that we can take pictures with a webcam!
hahas i shant talk much liaos..
let the PICS do the talking!
xD

Junting!

Ong and Derrence~

JP + Angela

yawns

2009-05-10T21:51:00.002+08:00

sians..
ytd's clubbing attempt failed..
end up slacked outside stjames till around 1..
wanted go thai pub de but all like ai mai ai mai hahaha!
then sua slack awhile more..
then went plaza sing with my bro and friend to watch Star Trek..
show starts at 0230 am lolols..
so we went 7-11 buy drinks and makan cup noodles 1st lols..
time up went up watch movie..
lited up all the arm rests and we were like occupying 3 seats each~
hahhaaas!
movie ended around 5am..
the movie was quite nice lehs..
imagine being able to teleport and travel at warp speed!
xDD
slacked at the starbucks tables till 6am..
cabbed down to queensway mac for breakfast..
went home shower and sleep after that..
woke around 3+pm..
ate brunch..
napped from 5+ to 7+ again LOL!
tired siols..
but stay awake also like nothing to do..
damn sians..
facebook also like nothing much to do now..
LOL!

tmr got Networking Infrastructure lab!
woooots!
why cant we have more netInfra labs!
haish~

wireless technology..
assignement..
havent start..
5 pages full detailed report..
lazy..
=.=

sleep..
needed..
rest..
fuck..
the..
5..
hours..
break..
tmr..
for..
a..
fucking..
1..
hr..
lecture..
_|_

sians

2009-05-06T23:01:00.004+08:00

is my death day approaching me?
somehow i get the feeling it is..
my left leg has been numb for like 4 days already..
it feels weird waking up in the middle of the night,
just to feel whether my leg's still there or not..
severe migraines have been haunting me since last evening..
do not ask me to take panadol pills..
i do NOT eat panadol..
i had difficulty breathing at a moment of time..
i thought i was going to die!
woots!
xD

erms yarhs some random thoughts...

1) bruised and battered by your words, dazed and shattered now it hurts; havent i always loved you?

2) and i'm still waiting for, you to be the one im waiting for..

3) you said move on, where do i go?

4) the worst way to miss somebody is to be sitting beside them, knowing you cant have them..

5) if i don't need you, then why am i crying on my bed?

6) if i don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?

7) if you're not for me, then why does this distance main my life?

8) and its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust..

9) if i could wish one thing, i'd hear you call my name..

10) turn around, don't leave me waiting in the lost & found..

11) somebody tell me why im on my own, if there's a soulmate for everyone..

12) i'll give up all that i had just to breathe the same air as you till the day that i die..

13) this heart of stone will sing till it dies..

14) cos when a heart breaks, no it don't break even..

yarhs..
zzz
i shall go ~~cry myself to~~ sleep...
=.=

stress~

2009-04-30T23:36:00.002+08:00

had lessons till 4 today..
was released at 2 though so...
went watched x-men with jonathan and victor..
not bad lahs hahas~
the diamond girl damn style lahs..
harden her whole body with diamond lol~
weapon XI also style lols..
mutant with many powers combined..
but also kenna killed by wolverine..

ohyeah before going in the cinema..
victor told me the kallang leisure park added the hammer machine thingy..
just as well i needed to vent off some anger..
i go whack lor~
as usual, i set a new high score again!
x)
am i pro or what? hahahahahs!
next target! SUNTEC's ARCADE!
if they still have it there lahs lols..
or if anyone knows where there's such machines..
tell me OK?
x))

i really neeed to destress like this..
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

yawns~

2009-04-29T22:19:00.003+08:00

school sucks..
whats with the excessive programming lessons we are having now?
3 different lessons of it!

my mind's already filled of other things already..
codes cant enter now i dont know why..
i wish to get at least a B for those subjects bahs..
haish i seriously dont want my GPA to go below 3..
sianzation..

seriously lahs,
my hearts seriously in a mess..
being constantly reminded of someone isnt really that nice after all..
especially if, ya...........
screw it!
whatever lahs zZz..

if i could wish one thing,
i'd hear you call my name..
so when will i see your face again?

but if i do..
your face just tears holes in whatever heart i have left with..
and im really unable to withstand that pain anymore..
SEEING YOU IT KILLS ME NUMB!

now all thats left of me..
is what i pretend to be..
so together but so broken up inside!

blahs screw life..
fuck life..
fuck everything..
FML!

anyways my new hairtsyle is cute!
i SAY one..
+ alot of others hahahs~
ok lahs BHB but i dont give a fuck anymore..
piss me off and you get it from me..
:]

woots!

2009-04-25T00:41:00.002+08:00

woots!
helped out as a helper for TP's Guiness World Record for Wheelbarrow Race!
participated as a participant too!
im 6018!
hahas and im pretty sure we took the record back from Australia!
xDD

i went for 2 rounds!
muahahhas so i had 2 goodie bags!
xDD
had 3 cans of redbull!
given at the end of race muahahahahahas!
xDD

sians..
now that im home doing nothing..
my mind will run wild again..
aiya thanks to someone..
i teared while msning again last night LOL!

crap it lahs i shall go sleep already..
i have work later from 10am-10pm!
i havta wake up by 8.30 am lor!
OMG and its 1 am now..
=.=

O M G ~

haish

2009-04-23T22:03:00.003+08:00

i dont know if im doing the right thing..
feels like its very wrong..
i've committed the mistake once..
once bitten twice shy?
i guess thats abit of how im feeling now..
it aint once bitten lahs..
its quadruple bitten dunno how many times scared liaos lahs..
=.=

i dont know lahs..
the moment i see her face..
it kinda reminds me of someone else..
cos the similarities are just stunningly similar..
the dress sense, the "seh", almost everything about her leads to another her..

to someone who tapped me on the shoulder just now..
sorry if i gave you a face..
i didnt meant it..
it's just that i was busy thinking over some things..
trying to sort my thinking out..

PS:
once im thinking i shut the fuck up de..
so dont ever piss me off when im quiet or you shall face my wrath..
and i mean it..

yarhs whatever..
you guys can just take that im PMSing again..
its going to take some time to recover again...
and i mean some time..
i was barely recovering when it all had to start from scratch again..
it just isnt fun trying to get over something that hurts you over and over again..
its a thousand times more worst than dying..
and to die repeatedly over again isnt fun..
trust me..

and it isnt fun crying yourself to sleep......

xD

2009-04-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

school started..
timetable is hate/love feeling..
love cos friday no school..
hate cos i got TWO 5 hours break!
like wtf?
=.=

nvm i shall look forward to the girls in food hygiene!
xD

had alot of things happenening thats why i lazy blog hahas!

8-12th april i working..

13th April: Went sentosa with top models. not all turn up though cos some havta work or some family things to settle. blahs crap.

14th was refresher course for mentors!

15-16-17 was WEEK ZERO!
my most anticipated thingy ever ahhahahs! although i was assigned to be a mentor of a GUYS course.. didnt realy dissapoint me that much bahs since all still quite ok..

18th: Nephew's 1 yr old bday.. Had buffet dinner at Ellenborough cafe? dont know lahs its at swissotel merchant court hahahas! saw jessica.. WRONG.. SMELLED her then spotted her.. she like only saw me once, while i saw her TONS of time.. lols blind girl..

19th: worked from 10-10.. reached home 11+.. fucking tired but worth it cos i sold $8k+ of fans! MUAHAHAHAHHAHAS CALL ME GOD~ xD

yarhs thats as far as i can remember liaos ahhahas~ guess i wont be seeing my buddaye and dear for awhile since school has started for us already..

STUPID LEO ZQ~ WHERE's MY LAST YEARS BIRTHDAY PRESENT U PROMISED MEEEE!!
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS!

2009-04-20T22:52:00.002+08:00

TAGS REPLIED!

xLi: linked you already!
xing: so? better than ur FYP? i friday no school HAHAH!
win2: relinked!
Cassandra: yes any problem with that?
Wen Chieh: ^^v

2009-04-11T01:46:00.001+08:00

APRIL!
MEANS!~

WEEK ZEROOOOOOOOOO!
STARTING OF SCHOOOOOOOOOOL!!

but before that!
tahan 2 more days of work and enjoy the whole of next week with just plain PLAYING!
xDD
alrights i updated smthing!
xPP

zi hua~
LOL!

yawns~

2009-03-29T13:43:00.006+08:00

wooooooooooooooooots~
back from Mentor Training Camp!
hahahaha fun sias~
Top Models OOOOOIIIIIII!! xDD

hahas ok lahs still got hangover..
games are fun..
kenna licked by someone during the 100 secs race..
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dont ask me who only someone knows LOL!
i got abit of tan on the last day..
sneaking into somewhere to shower..
STUPID night walk which wasnt scary at all..
more like funny cos i was laughing at my partner kenna scared LOL!
food sucks HAHAHA!
as usual lahs which camp food doesnt suck?
xDD

knew tons of friends muahahhahas!
ok lahs apart from the fact that something unpleasant happened to bunk mates.
camp was enjoyable~

yeahs in case you all start complaining im not updating my blog..
i UPDATED something can?
i UPDATED songs into the playlist as well..
so..
enjoy..
X_X

oh yeahs camp video hahahs!

yawns

2009-03-14T21:17:00.003+08:00

hahas i know holidays are here..
budden im lazy to update my blog lahs!
everyday is just eat sleep shit and play LOL!
holidays went back for training for like 2 times nia lols..
aiya for those who want to kaypo my results..

PSPS : P
EMATHS2 : D+
TELESYS : C
WEBAPP2 : B
OOP : B+
JAP : A
NETFUND : A

I FUCKING PASSED PSPS DESPITE ATTENDANCE AT 70++% LOLOL! LUCKY ME! xD
&&
MY FUCKING GPA DROPPED FROM 3.0smth smth to 3 LAHS!
KNNBCCB! sibeh BUAY SONG ARHS!
GPA DROP SIA! WTF! T_T

lols kkkk enough whining..
I WANT GO IT FAIR!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~
.......

arghs i want to step out of the house lahs..
if not sooner or later become zai nan liaos rofl~
hor dear hor?
now my turn liaos..
AHAHAHAHAHHAS!
and make sure you free next thurs arhs!
=XX

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many people i wanna meet up with but all like having their own plans and our free dates will always crash... hard to plan a single dinner day sias lolols~

BUDDAYE LEO! YOU MIA FOR HALF A YEAR LIAOS! MEET UP SOON LAHS! =X AND YOU STILL OWE ME LAST YEARS BIRTHDAY PRESENT!

ohh yeahs watch this videO!
its as addictive as the original version of insomnia!
craig david go ask wheesung from korea go sing an asian version rofl~
here's the video~
ENJOY~~

you know~ that i love you~ xDD

alrights im off to rearrange my songs in my mp3 liaos!
kinda messy from all the funny naming conventions so imma give mine a standard one!
i hate disorderly files hahahahs!
xDD

CIAOS~

haish

2009-03-06T18:31:00.002+08:00

there are many things i wish to say..
to say to that certain someone..
but not knowing that certain someone..
is a great mistake..
a mistake which i have repeated too many a times..
its something that i must stop..
only then will that space in my chest be filled..

but then again..
will that emptiness be filled..
or will it grow bigger?
i dont know..
i seriously dont know..

tell me how to win your heart,
for i havent got a clue..
but let me start by saying;
i love you...

T_T

2009-03-06T02:53:00.004+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
JUST NEEED TO SHARE THIS VIDEO!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
im still watching the drama and hope it turns out well for kenzou!
T_T

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
ohs paiseh this drama's called Proposal Daisakusen..
even the song title is depressing as well!
ASHITA HARERU KANA!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
T_T

woahs~

2009-02-27T15:11:00.006+08:00

ahahahhas~
holidays are boring..
but yesterday was a fun day..
woke up around 1.30+ then go play pool at kovan area..
jy, jp, wendy, der, me, sh took turns yupps..
play until 6pm liddat..
bussed to bugis with wendy to wait for somemore people for steamboat!
ong, jj, bg, kaven, flora..
nb say 7pm reach all late except jj loloL!
he reached aroud 6+ abit..
earlier than me and wendy rofl~

yarhs so we went to chong qing huo guo for steamboat..
flora suggested tian tian huo guo when it fucking tastes awful lOL!
"yi sheng zong yao chang yi ci!"
yarhs taste one time you wont go back second time liaos AHAHAHAHHA!
yarhs so after steamboat for around 2hrs+..
we went bugis arcade slack..
played random stuff like basketball, throw the ball ball thingy, etc etc..
so i went play the hammer thingy..
the whack and see score one ahahahs!
bg and jj challenged each other rofl~
i dulan go change token and thrashed them!
beat the high score and got another chance..
whack again beat high score get another chance again rofl!
(there were tons of people looking at me now lol~)
whack again high score LOL!
whack again high score LOL!
whack again high score LOLOLOLOL!
we were already laughing like mad lahs ahahahs!
i raised the high score from 172/200 to 182/200!
so yarhs last time just anyhow whack cos not much energy liaos!
ahahahhahahahhas!
finally game over rofl~

people 1$ 2hits..
i 1$ 12 hits ahahahhahas!
then got noobs try to beat my high score but failed terribly..
and PATHETICALLY! xD
blahs whatever then they trained home..
i walked home from bugis as i had too much to eat..
can burn whatever i burn whatever first..

yeahs so reached home wanted to shower that time..
i hooking my clothes on the hook, and my hand weakened..
my PHONE was in my hand!
it fucking dropped in the pail of soapy water below!
NOOOOOOOO!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
my phone!
fuck it now its flickering..
at least it can operate i think...
whatever time to change new phone..
thanks god!
:D

blahs i shall now wait for 5pm+ to come go down queensway find JJ go walk around abit..
he's coming to buy things i think..
super rich kid rofl~
=XXXX

ciaos~

//edit
ahahahs dear reminded me somthing which i forgot to mention..
while walking home from bugis, i had dear's companion thu smsing!
ahahhahahs~
happpy?
x))

sianzation

2009-02-25T21:37:00.003+08:00

ahahahahhas sianzation!
the long awaited holidays are here!
but this means the chances of running into her are almost 0%!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
ahhh crap hopefully i run into her somehow..
yarhs as i was saying..
hoidays...
hmmmmmmms what else is there to do but sleeep it all away?!
xDD
ohyarhs + dotaing my life away lols..
hopefully there's training so i wont grow fat ahahahs!
aiya i slim down during holidays de since all i do is sleep..
school = spend energy = eat alot = fat!
holidays = sleep = no spend energy = lose weight :D
AHAHHAhAHAhaHAHAHS!
yes my body functions like that de lols~~~

yeahs in the meantime..
i shall..
erms..
i have no idea what to do..
=.="

ahhh!

2009-02-21T00:35:00.003+08:00

can i spazz?
yes why not.. this is MY blog LOL!

i saw her in the lift on the way down my block!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
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I SAW HER!

yes ok you guys got it..
i saw her..
ok end of spazz..
x)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

haish~

2009-02-18T00:32:00.003+08:00

somehow even though valentine's day is over..
the after effects are still not going away...

"but i know this crush aint going away~ ay~ ay~ ay ay~"

exams are on friday..
im trying hard to get into the mood for studying..
but seems like im not trying hard enough..
with tons of things inside my head..

"get out get out get out, get out of my head now"

hahas i have a songs for everything i wanna say..

"my life would suck without you"

ohh thats so true~

haish i dont know lahs hopefully i can cler my mind and reformat it in time for new information to get inside my head.. i dont wanna fail telesys and retake again.. its so fucking stupid studying that subject lahs! ITE learnt b4 but i also shutted down cos of all the formulas to calculate this and that..

the thing i hate most is calculation and formulas already.. maths is already a killer, and here comes one more telesys can take my life away sias...

arghs!
hopefully i pass my exams lahs..
i dont require much or expect anything more...
haishhh..

some sena to cheer me up :D

enjoy~

haish

2009-02-14T01:19:00.003+08:00

yeahs..
so its yet another lonely valentine..
whats next?
cursed to have crap relationships?
blahhs the more i wish to NOT think about it..
the more it haunts me..
life's cruel isnt it?
HAHAHAHAHAS!

was bussing home from chomp chomp just now and listening to my mp3..
somehow all the shuffled songs are so emo or love songs..

"And im so sick of love songs~
So tired of tears~
So done with wishing you were still here~
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow~
So why cant I turn off the radio?~"

this song is like what is ringing in my head now lahs!
suay suay nb shuffle to "your call"..
i always tear while singing to that song lahs..
i just relate to songs no matter what my emotions are..
they best represent how i feel and what i wanna express..

"waiting for your..
call im sick~
call im angry~
call im desperate for your voice~
listening to the song we used to sing~
in the car, do you remember?
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet~"

haish..
im really desperate for voice as i havent heard urs in ages..

"cause when a heart breaks, no it dont break even."

i came across this story somewhere..
men and women were actualy an entity..
but man was getting too strong and on the verge of surpassing God..
God thus decided to split mankind into Men and Women..
they were supposed to find their other half to complete themselves..

but i think God played a prank on me..
guessed he threw away my other half..
thus depriving me of a complete self..
TSK thanks arhs..
i appreciate your effort..

arghs i dont know lahhs!
if only she said yes...

blahs some random pic hahahahs!
see no evil =X

erms~

2009-02-10T00:52:00.002+08:00

erms after like almost 1 year..
i like finally went for track&field..
just to go try out the training..
the training is murderous i tell you..
i see the alumni member size i chua sai already..
i didnt even dare think about the training schedule lololols~

yeahs but as it was the 1st day so yupps he went easy on me..
the other members training was like OMFG de shiong..
lololols~
hopefully i dont give up that fast lahs hor..
else is must wait until the i get the track&field shirt then i quit ahhahas!
OOPS i said NOTHING! =X

reason i didnt joined earlier was..
1) training time.. 6-9pm =.=
2) training schedule like shiong hahahs!

budden if dont join de hua like bluff TP lehs..
cos in my appeal letter i said i would join to bring TP some glory rofl~
what crap i know hahahahhas!
aiya since inside liaos..
i shall try my best bahs!
hopefully i dont turn out to be some tanker like L4D LOL!
x))

shall go sleep liaos~
ciaos!

PS: its 1 am now...

s

2009-02-09T00:01:00.002+08:00

sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
last week of schoool liaos~
tahan this week..
+ next week study week and 20th 2 papers, 23rd 1 paper..
then..
RELAX LOHHHHHHS!
SONG ARHS THE LONG AWAITED BREAK IS LIKE FINALLY ARRIVING SIOLS!
:D

yeahs so sat was..
hair cut, facial..
went home..
ST JAMES!
:D

as usual stayed till club ended at 5am..
tmd so many malays, cheena and ahem *** girls..
LOL!

went mac slacked until 6am..
went outside roadside waved hi to bangalas riding home to dont know where..
they come in hordes i tell you..
kerner was waving hi to practically everyone..
=.=
he even flagged busses LOL!
something which is what i wont even do lololols~
yeahs cabbed home..
showered..
napped..

kenna woke up around 3pm go down pray tai sui..
ate abit thing..
went home..
change..
go out makan dinner again..
went island creamery after dinner..
tmd Nutella sold out liaos so i didnt get anything..
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ..

came home..
shit.. showered..
and came online till now :D
shall sleep soon hahahs~
ITS 1AM ALREADY!
6 HOURS OF SLEEP LEFT HAHAHAHAS!
CIAOS~

kewl~

2009-02-06T23:55:00.001+08:00

omg i was bored and guess what i found on youtube?
hahas some nice coke advertisement!

xDD

sianzation

2009-02-01T21:56:00.004+08:00

Can't read my~ can't read my~ no he can't read my poker face~

MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAS!
yet another night at stjames powerhouse lols..
this time 6 of us went..
opened 2 bottles johnnie walker black label..
drink and drink and drink wooots~
we went there like 9+?
stayed till club ends at 5am hahahs~
not much catches but ya whatever hahahas!
erms after club ended went harbourfront de mac makan..
then my friend's friend friend was being damn lame..
3 of us shoot him until he lan lan walk off rofl..
he say until machiam he lady killer liddat lolol!
then he got this "pussy" hair under his chin which he thinks its very sexy LOL!
fuck him and that pussy hair hahahhaas!
yeahs then after that cab home, shower and went sleep at 7am..

woke up 4 hours later to go grandma's house for lunch..
surprisingly i was able to wake up lolols~
cancelled appointment for role play rehearsal as all had their own things..
one even dont respond..
dots!
yupps so stayed there whole day from lunch till dinner..
played cards..
napped for awhile..
damn shag!
lolols~
cabbed home with family..
showered..
and here i am blogging..
wait for my mp3 charge awhile more then i shall go have my precious sleep liaos!
its going to be another long week!
ARGHS!

PS: Lady Gaga's hot! :D

FRIDAY 30th JAN:

after school had telesys quiz..
funny sias few class in lecture hall having quiz..
practically chain copy from the person infront LOL!
yeahs so after that decided to go sing K..
went teo heng nb closed till monday..
went pool nb now is for members only..
found 1 more place, nb shut down..
found yet another place, nb for members again..
walked back to PP there finally got somewhere to play pool lols..
while walking, we had a break at a shop selling shave icecream..
looks damn tempting so we all stopped..
kinda expensive but its worth every cent! :D
blahs then after pool..
some went home, some went eastcoast slack?
yarhs then i trained home lolols~
KO-ed not long after hahahahs!
yeahs i guess thats it..

the rest of the days of the week are just plain BORING!
T_T

wooo~

2009-01-25T15:42:00.003+08:00

hahahahs!
S for?
SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

yesterday morning go pray..
then lunch..
then pray again...
then go home nap..
then woke up at night..
had reunion dinner..
then here comes the fun part!

we went stjames powerhouse!
hahahahhas! :D
partied from 11pm to 5 am hahas!
openned a bottle of jim bean..
played games..
then "high" le go dance floor..
erms..
saw friend..
sticked with their group?
kenna violated =.=
erms.. yeahs whatever lOL!
had mac breakfast after that..
then 1st bus home..
showered..
slept till 3pm+?
and here i am!
xPP

ohkays shall go grab a bite already!
:D

yawns~

2009-01-23T21:15:00.002+08:00

yeahs call me slow if you want to..
im just outdated on chinese songs!
hahas cos i find it irritating when the chorus just repeats itself to make up a song!
and unless i take interest in a song would i go listen to it hahahahahs!
yupp yupps so now this is my top favourite chinese song ROFL~

its nice lahs!
omg de nice lolols~
ok lahs i rarely take interest in chinese songs can?
RAHHHH!!

anyways..
school days have been flying past at a FUCKING fast pace!
assignments, projects, quizzez, labtest are just thrown to us!
there isnt really much time left to do anything else!
cant even watch my ~~porn~~ anime!
HAIIISHHHH~

yeahs after school today..
stayed back in class sang flora a birthday song with the rest..
went design school eat lunch..
weather damn hot lahs for fucks sake!
triangular garden had sprinklers on!
so we went under the sprinklers to enjoy the cool mist hahahhahahs!
yeahs after playing around we seperated ways..
bussed home with 3 others..
fell asleep on bus as usual..
reached home napped for another 4 hours again..
you can NEVER imagine how exhausted i am!
NEVER!
i swear!
[:

yeahs i guess thats it bahs..
HAHA!

PS: I WANNA WATCH RED CLIFF 2 LAHS! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

tired......

2009-01-16T21:47:00.002+08:00

my hands, legs and face is now...
FUCKING
RED!

hahas been under the hot sun for 5 hrs liddat bahs..
cos got info-comm captains ball competition lmao~
we had to play so ya go play lor..
info-comm classes were divided into 2..
we were in division 1..
we pawned everyone and made it to champion in our division..
then played with the champion of the other division..
we noticed that they played quite rough..
and skills are not bad..
bigger build also..
so yupps..
tried our best,
played witch tactics..
and we PAWNED THEM!
NYAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHS!
wear same jersey so what?
we anyhow wear also pawn you all rofl~
play rough lahs!
pawn you all you all also liddat hahahas~

yeahs..
but the night before..
i went to dear's chalet to find her..
night cycling from aloha loyang to changi village and back...
tired like dog siols..
hahas..
napped for 2 hours..
showered..
bade farewell..
went school..
bought milo peng to restore some sugar in me..
lunch drank 1 bottle of coke mixed with redbull to keep me awake..
sugar rush rocks!
had 1.5L of mineral water..
1.5L of 100plus..
2 redbull cans..
1 500ml coke today..
shuang sias zitao is provided me the energy to stay awake the whole afternoon LOL!
ok now im home after napping on the bus..
showered, dinnered and starting to stone...
rahhhhhhhhhhhs!
my mind's asleep liaos lolols~

yo~

2009-01-02T23:45:00.003+08:00

heysheys!
i have a friend selling off her things at her blog..
prices negotiable..
items are still in very good conditions..
yupps..
Check It Out!
thanks for your support hahahs!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2009-01-01T23:05:00.004+08:00

HAPPY
NEW
YEAR!

lols..
had school on new year's eve..
like wtf?
blahs whatever..
after school go bedok makan lunch..
went home..
slacked abit..
showered and went town..
met charlene for dinner..
went find her sis and friends..
walked around abit then met up with bro and gang..
went clarke quay..
shouted happy new year to boats cruising along the river..
ang mohs responded but singaporeans did not..
DOTS!
so if got singaporean boat we all shouted..
"HAPPY NEW YEAR! PULL YOUR YEAR! then.. FUCK YOU!"
LOLOL!
stood outside homeclub until after fireworks display..
bought tickets to homeclub and went in after charlene and gang came..
partied till 6am..
2 left at 3am+..
charlene and gang left at 4am+..
after party end wanted to go nearby mac eat but fucking packed..
decided to go queensway de mac instead..
along the way saw lots of drunk indians..
all lying everywhere and vomiting LOL!
some even whack police then kenna arrested..
what a nice way to start off the new year ehs?
hehs!
yupps ate mac..
went home, showered..
KOed till 6pm+ then i got up for dinner downstairs..
LOL!

plus..
FUCK IT!
tmr got school!
T_T

ZOO!

2008-12-26T20:24:00.004+08:00

ZOO was fun! hahahhahas~
met evadne, jasmine, audrey and hong qing at redhill mrt at 10am..
took train to choa chu kang to meet up with wang zhi..
havent seen them for a fucking long time hahahhahas!
yupps so we took 927 to the zoo from cck..
suprisingly the bus was full so i was suspecting something liaos..
and tmd my guess was right!
the queue was FUCKING long!
so long till the extent its scary hahahs!
so we had lunch at the kfc outside first..
i chop chop eat chop chop go queue..
then they slowly eat and find me later..
yupps so we bought our tickets like half an hr later?
DOTTY DOT DOTX!
hahhas so we went in..
treetops trail first..
then walk walk walk walk..
saw kangaroo balls..
saw alot of obscene things lahs HAHAHAS!
white tiger licking his balls..
monkey balls etc etc!
LOL!

PROOF!
blame them for spotting this kinda things hahhas!
yarhs took pictures..
lame pictures..
lamed around~
hahahas..
went to the snake enclosure to see snakes and reptiles!
AHHHHHHHHH MY FUCKING FAVOURITE ANIMAL!
x))
small snakes ate mice..
pythons ate rabbits!
woooooos~
swallow swallow hahahas~
abit cruel i guess..
but thats how the animal world goes hahas!
yupps so i went into this open air thingy cos evadne said there was this big lizard blocking the pathway..
lizard blocking pathway = CAN PET!
hahahhahas! x)))
so i went in and saw all the bo ji people not daring to touch it lol!
big it was but not as big i want it to be..
OMG SO HANDSOME!

so i sayang it lor..

i machiam zitao become zoo's newest attraction liddat..
=.=
that iguana was enjoying himself until..
4 FUCKING BITCHES STOMPED THEIR WAY ACROSS THE PLATFORM AND FUCKING SPOOKED THE IGUANA!
stared at them until they leave..
cb ruin my petting session...
FUCK YOU YOU BITCHES!
dots!
yarhs so walked abit more,
and slacked at the polar bear there..

hmmmms yarhs soon it was time to go off..
took somemore pictures before heading out..
then took bus back to cck..
trained to jurong east..
audrey went off..
evadne went off..
left me, wang zhi, hong qing and jas..
jas wanted go place deposit at sakura somewhere in clementi area..
so pei her go...
went le we went back clementi central makan dinner..
after dinner went 328 see awhile fish..
bought feeder shrimps for my lionfish and bussed home..
online..
facebooked..
blogged..
and time to watch anime!
hahahhahahas!

SAYONARA!
MINNASAN OYASUMI NASAI!
x))

PICTURES!

KOMALI PAWNS ME AND DNE LOL!

WTF! SO BIG!

TSK! poor me gonna be crated!

RAWR~

ERMS?!

its dangerous when audrey drives..

BUT its EVEN more dangerous when jasmine drives! =X

remembering AH MENG!

cute ehs?

I LOVE SNAKES! DONT YOU?!

TURTLE POWER!

1.2.3.4

2008-12-26T00:20:00.002+08:00

1, 2, 1 2 3 4~

give me more lovin' then i've ever had~
make it all better when i'm feelin' sad~
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not~
make me feel good when i hurt so bad~
barely getting mad,
im so glad i found you~
i love being around you~

you make it easy,
as easy as 1, 2, 1 2 3 4~
there's only one thing two do three words four you~
(i love you)i love you~
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do~
(i love you)i love you~

give me more lovin from the very start~
piece me back together when i fall apart~
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you~
i love being around you~

you make it easy, as easy as 1, 2, 1 2 3 4~
there's only one thing two do three words four you~
(i love you)i love you~
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do~
i love you, i love you~(i love you)

you make it easy, its easy as 1, 2, 1 2 3 4~
there's only one thing two do three words four you~
(i love you)i love you~
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do~
(i love you)i love you~

i love you, i love you~

1~ 2~ 3~ 4~
i love you~ (i love you~)
i love you~ (i love you~)

HOHOHO!

2008-12-25T21:55:00.007+08:00

HOHOHO!!

MEEEERRRYYYY KKKUUURRIIIMMMAAASSSSUUUU EVERYONE!
hahahhahahs~

wooooooo..
have been partying 2 nights away with bro and his friends!
nyahahhahahahhahs~
23rd to 24th at ButterFactory!
24th to 25th at Phuture/Zouk!
stayed from opening to closing on both days hahahhas~
BOOZING AND PARTYING!

LET ME SEE YOU MOVE MOVE SHAKE SHAKE NOW DROP~

hahhaas..
made 3 friends today lols..
charlene and her sister + their friend faizal~
fun people i must say hehs~

yupps had breakfast after the party ended at 6 today and went home to sleep!
slept from 9am to 6pm lols~
turning night into day and day into night!
HAHAHA!

alrights bahs i shall go feed my beloved children liaos~
ciaos~

PS: FUCK! SCHOOL'S REOPENING! DAMMIT!

haish!

2008-12-18T00:10:00.003+08:00

i seriously need to let go..
let go of everything thats stacked up inside..
the little bits and pieces..
its slowly piling up..
its scary seeing it pile up..
its just plain scary!
and its just too much for me to bear anymore..
i need to let it out..
somehow or another..
else i will break..
i seriously will break!

and..
is it me or im asking too much?
is it that hard to just something that i really want?
why is it so that i cant get what i want?
why is life so cruel?
why does nothing go my way for once?
why am i cursed with this fate?
WHY?!

ya ya ya..
blame everyone but not yourself you may say..
try placing yourself in my shoes only then you will get my point..
i know there may be hundreds or even millions out there whose fate is worst than mine..
but..
can't i rant abit?!
arghs!

and i seriously need my dose of twilight..
anyone wanna watch?
tsk..
most likely none..
HAAAAAAAAA!
i may just freaking go watch it alone..
as usual..................

boredom

2008-12-16T02:42:00.003+08:00

ok im bored...
so here goes LOL!

1. The person who tagged you is ?
xing

2. Your relationship with him/her ?
erms.. fam? hhahahas sec school classmate..

3. Your 5 impression of him/her ?

- ehs? shy?
- kenna stalked always LOL!
- quiet.. not! LOL!
- laughs at little things...
- always with lois... =X

4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you ?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you ?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....

6. If he/she become your lover, you will ?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....

9. If he/she dies, you will ?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....

10. What is it you want to tell he/she now ?

I ATE BASKIN ROBBINS FOR LUNCH! NYAHAHAHAHHAHAHS!

11. Your overall impression of he/she ?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....
ohkays lahs quite fun to lame around with..
=P

12. How do you think people around you will feel ?

EMO! x))

13.The characters you love of yourself are?

IM SWEET! REAL SWEET! TO THE EXTENT YOU WILL GET DIABETES! NYAHAHAHAHHAS!

14.ON the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are ?

EMO RAWKS SOCKS!

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?

Nobody! Cos nobody's perfect! x))

16.For people that care and likes you,say something to them.

Erms thanks?

17.Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.

1. xing
2. xing
3. xing
4. xing
5. xing
6. xing
7. xing
8. xing
9. xing
10. xing

18.Who is no.6 having a relationship with?

i dont know.. one minute GD one minute TOP....

19.Is no.9 a male or a female?

female LOL

20.If no 7. and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

WOOOOO LOL IN LOVE WITH HERSELF HAHAHAHAS!

21.What is no.2 studying all about?

Some course in NYP? i keep forgetting.. =.=

22.When was the last time you chatted with no.3?

chatted? no.. sms.. yes lols~

23.What kind of music band does no.8 likes?

the real shit! big bang LOL!

24.Does no.1 have any siblings?

erms.... forgot LOL!

25.Will you woo no.3?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....

26.How about 7?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....

27.Is no.4 single?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....
guess so..
but with her countless affairs..
HMMMMMM!

28.What is the surname of no.5?

LAU

29.What is the hobby of no.10?

EMO - EMO - STALKER - EMO - EMO

30.Does no.5 & 9 get along?

they are 1 person LOL!

31.Where is no.2 studying at?

NYP

32.Talk about something for no.1?

erms.. oldies?

33.Have you tried developing feelings with no.8 ?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....

34.Where does no.9 live in?

singapore lols~

35.What colour does no.4 likes?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....

36.Are no.1 and 5 bestfriends?

omg you can be sure they are best of friends LOL!

37.Does no.1 have any pets?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....
is your hamster still there?
LOL!

38.Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss....

39.What is no.10 doing now?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss.....
online stalking someone?
LOL!

tiramisu

2008-12-12T00:29:00.003+08:00

i seriously need my sincere smile back..
its gone for some time now..
there's something i must have in order for it to come back..
my beloved.....

T
I
R
A
M
I
S
U
!

arghs~

2008-12-07T21:33:00.002+08:00

ARGHS!
term test's next week!
omg im breaking down from all that stress lahs!
arghs!
4 papers to tackle!
wtf is differentiation?!
wtf is telecommunications and systems?
i dont fucking understand shit lahs!
they know me but i dont know them!
haish~
die liaos die liaos..
no time to even blog..

hope the 2 weeks break come like tmr lahs!
then i can sleep the whole 2 weeks away!
oh wait!
i still have projects to do..
dammit lahs!
zzZzzz...
im seriously gasping for air now!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

YAWNS

2008-11-26T23:17:00.002+08:00

days pass by so fast i dont even have time to sleep! with all the fucking assignments, projects, quizzes and test, no wonder my body's breaking down..

shall update when im really damn free..

rahhs~

2008-11-22T23:54:00.002+08:00

1st of all..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUAN PING!
:D

hahahs today went out with birthday boy juan ping, wendy, jiayin..
go marina square play bowling?...
waited damn long so we went play arcade first hahhas..
then erms played until about time then bolwed~
seeing wendy bowl makes us laugh our ass off hahhahahs!
yepps i wont the match =X

after that go play pool for awhile hahah~
ive never really touched pool so for a beginner..
im actually doing quite well lols..
zi kua zi kua~
budden budden i hit my cue stick against the lighting
and 2 out of 3 bulbs blew hahahhas!
the sound was so loud that everyone turned and stared at our table hahahs~
i was like laughing my ass off lahs! =XX

the pro pool-ers~

then erms had dinner at the kopitiam at lvl 3..
walked down bought drinks..
slacked outside the stairs area for awhile..
supposedly waiting for jp's friend to come watch movie..
end up they say cancel so we walked to clarke quay..
walked there from MS..
walked a super big round round the river when we
could just walk 20 more steps instead hahahha!

erms bought drinks slacked at the riverside..
watching the reverse bungee and extreme swing on the opposite shore haha!
funny lahs the screams and everything lols..
yupps yupps so i secretly poured milk bought from 7-11 awhile ago into the milk bottle that we got yesterday!
we wanted to make the birthday boy drink from it hahahs!
which he eventually did!
xD success woohooos~

PROVE!!

the bungee thingy..

like fun only~

the stairs at the riverside

Random shotss...

then yupps they took train go home..
i walked home as usual as i had nothing to do..
so i walked along that river home lor..
walk walk walk..
pubs so many chio jiejie's hahahhahs~
too bad can see ~~cannot touch~~ LOL!
oops i said nothing! =X
yupps walked past Zouk and saw somemore lahs!
feel like going in party liaos lol~~
i nvr really go Zouk b4..
that time stepped in cos of the flea market only hahahas!
WHO WANNA GO ZOUK?!?!?! =XX

yarhs thats all bahs hahahhas~
OYASUMI!
na sai!
throw your face!
xPP

21st November

after school went seoul garden at tampines mall with jiayin, jon ong, wendy, juan ping, beng ghee.. hahas ate for like 2 hours + liddat.. we ate alot lahs.. i eat until bloated lol! me and ong were like creating coke floats~ bbq bbq bbq.. burnt the plate dunno how many times in a short while hahas!

you know why? cos we did lame stuffs like frying eggs on the thingy when we know its gonna stick on the pan and be burnt! hahahhahahas! those working there walked past our table and gave us the "what-the-fuck-are-you-guys-doing" kind of look LOL! think we kenna blacklisted from there liaos lol! end up i go take chicken, cook le, then i go crack an egg on top~! hahahs! end up dunno how come link until the drama "dan chao fan" then we go take rice and go fry rice LOL! cfm blacklisted liaos this time hahahahhahas!

PROVE!

we were saying amongst ourselves..
"that person inside washing confirm will go..
KNNBCCB LAHS! EAT DONT KNOW HOW TO EAT PROPERLY ARHS?! MAKE UNTIL THE HOTPLATE FULL OF THINGS THAT ARE STUCK ON IT!"

lols if me i also do the same thing lahs.. those things dan hard to scrub off one LOL! yupps then we left and went century square play arcade hahahs! play le go home liaos.. didnt eat dinner and supper due to the fucking full lunch lols~~

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!

i want go out THON on christmas eve!! ahhhhss!!
who want to pei me?!
T_T

rahhs!

2008-11-17T23:47:00.002+08:00

rahhs!
went school..
mugged on train abit..
took bus 69
havta stand!
suddenly headache!
go class start quiz liaos!
cannot do!

telesys lecture damn pek chek!
everyone talking~
plus cher's high pitched voice + mic!
OMG CAN DIE!

maths lecture next!
already trying hard to pay attention despite my hungry stomach!
and pissed since morning!
so i exploded!
"EHHHH SHUDDUP LAHS!"
woots peace for the whole lecture..
and i understood what he was saying like erms 70%?
better than nothing!

ok end of story~
x))

sweetness~

2008-11-11T23:10:00.002+08:00

had a tiring day in school as usual~
dumb ass tutorials are killing me..
programming 1st day in the morning kills brain cells indefintely!
T_T

was looking forward to after school lahs!
zzzzz~
went outside school for lunch..
had bubble tea~
we were saying next week buy durian smoothie b4 lecture..
then MAASSSSSS burp in lecture hall so all will smell like durian HAHA!
evil i know!
but i like~
x))

and and and!
after school le woots!
xD

went amk waited for dear and friends..
say hao le meet 5 end up 6 reach =.=
blahhs played psp for like almost an hr~
hai me rush down from tampines lols~

bought mochi for dear to eat~
she liked it!
x))

went to have steamboat dinner..
ok lahs not bad..
amk central there de porridge steamboat..
yupps~
still quite edible for the pricing of $13.90 on wkdays..
yupps~

gave dear a lil smthing i bought..
she gave me a handmade b'day card!
hahas omg thats the nicest and sweetest thing i'd ever rec'd!
thanks dear!
=3

trained home with them..
bade farewell at jurong east..
me sit train to commonwealth..
5 sit train to boonlay..
1 sit train to woodlands..
3 different sides lols~

reached home..
shit..
showered..
online-ed..
PSPS-ed..
blogged..
and i shall go sleep!
x))

PS: I Love You~

yawns~

2008-11-10T23:02:00.001+08:00

yay~
cut hair~
facial~
long day~
yawnssss~~

AND IM SEEING DEAR TMR!
x))

Eat You Up

2008-11-10T00:04:00.002+08:00

omg you guys should check check check check this out~

i'll eat you up!

rahhhs!

x))

love~

2008-11-08T02:00:00.001+08:00

somehow..

it seems to me that..

i'll be in love with you forever!
and i mean forever!

=')

xD

2008-11-05T22:32:00.001+08:00

wooo~~

new and fresh!

enjoy~

:D

fuck it

2008-11-05T01:31:00.003+08:00

when i ask a question.. i EXPECT an ANSWER!

"ANYTHING" is NOT an answer!

limits of repeating a question: 3!

anymore and i WILL SHOUT..
i dont fucking care if i dont have face..
i just demand a reply..
thats as simple as that..

and when i make decisions..
dont come shouting in my face that
you dont FUCKING like it!

if you dont like my decisions..
then FUCKING answer me when im asking a
GODDAMNED question!

biatch(es)!

haish~

2008-11-01T00:33:00.003+08:00

kondo wa itsu aeru ka namte
sonna kao shite yoku ierutte
omotteta yo nande darou
any time shaberisugi no KY
chirari miseru tsuyogari na "i cry"
namida no kouka wa dore kurai?

watashi narini "ai saretai"
afureru no ni kimi ga mienai
nido to kimi ni aenai
sonna ki ga surunda..

tsutaetai no ni umai kotoba miataranai
watashi tabun uso demo ii no ni
"ikanai de" mo ienai yo~

nigitteta te ga hanaretara
kimi wa itsuka wasurechau no,
watashi no koto?

tsutaetai no ni umai kotoba miataranai
watashi tabunuso demo ii no ni
"ikanai de" mo ienai yo~

いっぺん、死んでみる?

2008-10-30T22:44:00.003+08:00

lesson learnt today:

should your jap teacher scold you..
STARE at him/her and say in a deep voice..

いっぺん、死んでみる?!

:D

sobs

2008-10-29T01:06:00.002+08:00

someone's blog song made me tear..

i dont know why but listening to that song just made my whole world crumble inside me..

its something that words can never represent..

blahs i know this is random but..
this is life..
cruel,
unfeeling,
harsh,
UNFORGIVING!

yawns

2008-10-25T00:44:00.013+08:00

yupps..
so that dreaded day is here again..
as usual, i can't fast forward the day away!
it keeps coming back to haunt me..
i don't know..
i seriously don't know..
yes i hate birthdays!
i don't know why but i hate birthdays!
can't you guys freaking see its just another day?!
yarhs its fun i know..
to me?
i dont know..
but i really appreciate what you guys did for me..
thanks for the cake, the presents, everything..
so, if i ever did raise my voice at anyone today..
forgive me ehs?
haa!

//edit

after school coursemates and classmates planned surprise..
so entertained them..
went downtown east hei sushi for buffet lunch..

went watch high school musical 3 at TM..
went home..
slept..

pictures:

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its not as if i want to be like this..
its just that alot of things had happened..
so much so i shut myself in my own world..
yarhs "blame everyone but yourself" you'd say..
but..
do you know what im thinking about?
no!
and you will never will..
no one will ever know..
i won't share..
call me selfish for all i care..
i don't give a damn anyways..
hehs!
just..
leave me to drown in my own despair...

==============================================

what i did today:

woke up at 2pm+?
went down Zhou Zhuang for high tea buffet..
bought secret recipe's chocolate indulgence cake..
reached home 6pm liddat..
napped till 10.30pm?
showered and went online..
what an "exciting" birthday~
TSK!

pictures:

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those who wished me wherever~

sms:

1st - audrey
2nd - joanna
3rd - jonathan
4th - kaven
5th - yvonne
6th - li yan
7th - jim
8th - my ah yee (:
9th - qi min
10th - wei juan
11th - qiu yu
13th - zhi qing
and most importantly!
sophia dear!! :D

msn:

1st - wendy
2nd - meihsin
3rd - asandy

advanced bdae celebration:

liyan
jolene
wei qiang
win win
KJ
kaven
derrence
flora
joanna
jiayin
zhen wen
wen ding
beng ghee
jun jie
juan ping
wen jun
huimin

friendster:

1st - wei xin
2nd - melanie
3rd - wendy
4th - ker jui
5th - lois (stop the butch thing lahhs~~ x.x)
6th - patricia
7th - pan hui
8th - yaw hui
9th - dong shuen

blog:

1st - win win
2nd - cassandra

facebook:

1st - jacinda
2nd - gerald
3rd - charmaine
4th - lee yee

some usual few did not bother to wish me this year..
nvm dont wish me also can i dont bother also!

PS: dear! thanks for your sms ya? it really cheered me up! you just know what to say to me no matter what happens! and i love you for that! :D its been almost 5 years and yet we are still able to read each other like a book.. hope this thing never dies alrights dear? hahas anyways you jiayous for your Os huhs! never give in, never give up! i'll always be there for you no matter what happens alright? GANBARIMASU! :D

crush~

2008-10-21T22:55:00.002+08:00

i hung up the phone tonight..
something happened for the first time deep inside..
it was a rush, what a rush..

cause the possibility,
that you would ever feel the same way about me..
its just too much, just too much..

why do i keep running from the truth?!
all i ever think about is you!
you got me hypnotised, so mesmerized~
and i just got to know~

do you ever think,
when you're all alone?
all that we can be,
where this thing can go?

am i crazy or falling in love?
is it real or just another crush?
do you catch your breath?
when i look at you..
are you holding back?
like the way i do?

cos im trying and trying to walk away..
but i know this crush ain't going away~ ay~ ay~ ay~ ay~
going away~ ay~ ay~ ay~ ay~

has it ever crossed your mind?
when we're hangin' spending time girl..
are we just friends?
is there more, is there more?!
see its a chance we gotta take..
cos i believe we can make this into something that will last forever~ forever!

am i crazy or falling in love?
is it real or just another crush?
do you catch your breath?
when i look at you..
are you holding back?
like the way i do?

cos im trying and trying to walk away..
but i know this crush ain't going away~ ay~ ay~ ay~ ay~
going away~ ay~ ay~ ay~ ay~

why do i keep running from the truth?!
all i ever think about is you!
you got me hypnotised, so mesmerized~
and i just got to knoooooowwww~~

do you ever think,
when you're all alone?
all that we can be,
where this thing can go?

am i crazy or falling in love?
is it real or just another crush?
do you catch your breath?
when i look at you..
are you holding back?
like the way i do?

cos im trying and trying to walk away..
but i know this crush ain't going away~ ay~ ay~ ay~ ay~
(this crush ain't) going away~ ay~ ay~ ay~ ay~
(going away) going away~ ay~ ay~ ay~ ay~

dots

2008-10-21T00:08:00.002+08:00

hmmmmms is it me or is everyone around me starting to get pretty emotional? be it family, friendship or relationship problems.. im seeing too much of it nowadays.. and its seriously getting into me! its eating into my memories which i've been trying to bury deep inside somewhere! they are fucking resurfacing! and i dont want them to!

so whats the talk about dying? i dont know, there are times too many where i felt as if its better off dead.. but think! is it worth throwing your life away just for something which is hurting you only temporarily? what doesnt kill you makes you stronger i guess..

heyheyhey! for a pessimist, im pretty optimistic~ x)

so you guys better stop doing what you are doing.. cos its really gonna affect me, you know it dont you? plus that dreaded day is coming.. i really dont want it to come! fast forward can i? hmmms.. fuck it! ^^v

ps: you, you know who you are.. please stop telling me stories which i dont want to hear.. please do NOT assume everyone/thing will turn out the way that happens to you.. life is cruel! face it! and stop telling me to just look at things in a different light when certain things only come in DARKNESS! you get me?!

random~

2008-10-20T01:10:00.004+08:00

hahahhs the following photos consists of randomness and outing on the friday, 17th oct with coursemates and classmates! hahahhhaas ohkays im really lazy to type anything much so here goes nothing!

ONE MORE THING~ class starts in 7.5 hrs time! and im still freaking awake LOL! good luck to me man! xD

hehs~

2008-10-16T21:44:00.004+08:00

hahahhas~

im considering to cut my hair short! wait wait.. only on the right side of my head! hahahhahas~ cut is so damn short~ but not shave lahs hahahs! if sahve then really damn funny liaos i think~ should i should i? HAHAHHAS! nvm if i do cut, i will take a pic de bahs i guess hahas!

anyways a certain someone said i dont look like a girl when everyone else is saying the opposite lahs! hahahs hor joanna SIAO hor?! xD ehhs hahahhahahs thanks kaven for typing out that surname for all to follow!~ :D yupps yupps to prove her wrong.. here goes nothing~

hahahhas so yupps! prove! hahahahahahahas! kukunarden~ hehs..

anyways im here to share something nice! hahahas xing showed me this video ytd night? ive been like rewatching it lahs hahahs! stupid video, why so addictive hehs.. somehow i feel like ive been into smthing familiar, or is it not? too much thoughts tooo much i dont want to say anymore liaos.. watch and understand for yourself bahss..

hehs i guess thats it bahs? hahhas ohyeah i went down and bought 3 tees! for 20$ hahahhas yay school reopen next week got new clothes wear lohhs~
=.="

bbq~

2008-10-13T16:53:00.008+08:00

hahahhas had 3 days of chalet with my classmates and coursemates! held at costa sands pasir ris lols.. 8, 9 and 10th october lalalas~ enjoyed myself thoroughly those 3 days lahhs! so fun can hahhas~

day 1: yupps.. met derrence, kaven, kj, castillo at pasir ris.. the bussed and walk to costa sands to check in.. liyan came later in a cab =.= rich peepo are like this hahhahas! cab = bus LOL! =X yarhs so checked in, slacked and waited for a couple more to come before heading to buy our neccessities at loyang point's sheng shiong hahas.. buy and buy like nobody's business rofl~ hmmmmmms then what we do? makan? yarhs makan then erms.. lols actually i kinda forgot what we did HAHA! but i know we rented 13 bikes for night cycling.. 1st day no bbq cos alot ppl cmi, so push it to 2nd night lor hahas.. ohya had chicken rice at e!hub lols.. the chatterbox chef open his own shop there.. so yupps, that night ended up with 14 people ==' so we cycled to mel's house to borrow a bike for another coursemate and cycled to changi village! hahahhahhas~ tired like anything can.. think cycle there and back, nearing 20 kilometres siols~ ahahhahas! yupps so we slacked there abit.. just when we were leaving for another place, ahmah fell into the bushes in SUPER WOLS motion hahahs~ all were like laughing at her then i helped her up.. so bad siols ask me help the bike instead of her lols.. so half went back, half had supper.. hahahs omg lor, we saw ahkuas, budden is those super CMI one can?! no wonder they no business lahs hahas! those at the carpark one are like much chio-er LOL! blahs whatever~

yarhs so after supper we rode back.. terrible i tell you.. all the upslopes killing me cos my blood sugar dropped suddenly until i was like seriously lagging behind siols~ hahahahas so i was like peddling ylwols behind.. like eons passed before i reached the chalet.. so i just sat down there and STONED! hahas i was asleep with my eyes like the rest said.. only when they touched me did i move hahahs.. they freaked out lahs, they thought i was possessed or something hahhas.. i did that like 3 times? lols whatever.. 1st night didnt really sleep hahahs..

day 2: sooon it was tian liang liaos lols.. blahs then half of them went WWW while the remaining few slacked around for abit and went shengshiong + shopnsave to buy remaining groceries needed for bbq.. hmmmmmmms yarhs bbq time? then ahmah and me started fire.. started thawing food blahs etc etc.. had fun bbqing the whole night.. drank vodka! jiayin, me and ong each a cup and nothing happened to us LOL! the junjie and penguin drink little bit nia SEH liaos hahahhas! so effing funny hahahas.. so yupps had surprise celebration for derrence and desmond.. farid went around creaming everyone, winwin tooo! alot of innocent bystanders kenna, including me hahahhas~ yarhs so whatever, showered and i went up to the room to slack liaos.. the rest played murderer the whole night lols.. me, ong and jiayin lazed around on the bed.. blahs like 6+ liaos alot of them went home.. left with the few of us to pack and check out.. derrence and kj cabbed home.. i followed jiayin and ong go mac for breakfast.. the cabbed home.. reached home around 10+am, collapsed on bed and concussed until 11pm, only to wake up cos im effing hungry hahahhas! xD

yupps went to bed at 3am.. then havta work on saturday and sunday =.= uber shag can lols..

pooor ong kenna snapshot by me ahhhaas!

Lucky Us!

2008-10-06T23:14:00.003+08:00

LUCKY US~

today went out with buddaye leo... met her around 1+ at amk hub! hahahhas we 2 abit late cos of bus rofl~ nvm lahs hahahas around same timing reach also hahahs.. yupps as we wanted to eat the dinner buffet, there was like 3 hours plus or so from the supposed meeting time mahs, we caught a movie! My Best Friend's Girl nyahahhahas~ hahahas so funny lahs! pay a guy to be a bastard so that the girl can run back to the previous bf LOL! the antics, the pattern, the everything is just so funny hahahhas! oh yarhs we had budget lunch cos we wanted to save our money for the expensive buffet later! so we smuggled bread and drinks into the cinema! ^^v hahahhahas! ohya saw shen lee at NTUC shopping with his lao bu hahas..

yupps so after movie, we trained down to cityhall! saw "ah chwee" at the station lols.. diaos lahs see courts staff! siao liaos lahs me LOL! yarhs hopefully he wont say anything to my mum hahas.. then yupps reached cityhall liaos.. walked around suntec abit.. and saw auntie wendy =.= siao liaos lahs hope she wont tell my mum again LOL! yarhs so we lamed around, walked around toys r us.. playing with that soft toy that "farts" LOL! we were like giving it cpr then hearing it fart hahas! lame i know~ but its fun can?! yarhs soooon it was like 1730 liaos, and we headed to KUISHIN-BO! xD

hahahhas so yupps.. we started with KAMINABE first as its advisable not to down raw food mahs.. hahahs NOT KNNB lahs! its some soup can? we chose the seafood de hahahs.. yarhs as it was cold, we stoned until the thing became hot cos below the pot got candle burning hahas.. hmmms.. sashimi? crabs! oh yeah the crabs were like power siols!

when you bite down right, the flesh is so juicy it spurts in your mouth! the juice is like so SWEEEEEEEEET lahs! omg omg omg de fresh lor! piangs ehs where to find siols? hahahhas chili crab and black pepper crab shall never manage to tempt me again man! we ate a whole big plate of it xD hahahs.. had tuna,salmon and dunno what sashimi.. FRESH SIOLS! and there was like this promotion thingy liddat, every dunno how long, thay play their advertisement, then got specials on the house limited to like 20 pax? hahahs we didnt bother to go take cos it wasnt really anything special also.. baked prawns with cheese? like so common siols lols~ we just had our drink and ate teppanyaki (dory fillet)! so smooth so fresh siols! OMG! worth every penny lahs! xDD

so we were like filled to the brim liaos.. waiting for the food to go down our stomachs when the restaurant was like announcing the 10 lucky winners for the night to dine for free! hahahs actually we knew of that the night before liaos, so we were like telling each other hopefully its us lahs hor? hahhahhahas! so yupp yupps, they announced like 4 tables already, and we took note of our table number "B13".. so we were like asking each other...

OOI: "are you suay?"
ZQ: "of cos suay lahs!"
OOI: "hahhahas same same lahs!"
OOI: "but nvm lahs.. u suay, i suay.. negative + negative = positive so should be heng lahs hor?"

just then...
the speaker went...

"would the number 4 winner pick the next winner?"
"and we have it, table B13!"

we 2 stared at each other.. stunned LOL! then we kee siao liaos hahahahhas! we got free buffet meal for nothing siols hahahhas! omg lor ahahhas its like $35.90++, plus until like $42.25 each mahhs.. then no need to pay siols LOL! we were like kee siao over there lahs! everyone surrounding us gave that "wah laos ehs why they so heng one?" look! LOL! ahhahas then the staff approached us and gave us a letter to be handed in to the cashier later hahas.. as there were like 2 other friends i saw there as well, i flassheddd the letter at them and they were like trying to snatch it away from me! hahahhahas make them jealous we got free meal LOL!

hahhahas we were like so happy until our stomach sudddeennnlllyyy got space again siols! attack the buffet table again llolL! this time attack the desserts liaos hahas.. we had tiramisu, cakes, sorbet, eclairs, cream puffs, erms how can i forget.. CHOCOLATE FONDUE!! ^^v~ hahahhas stuffed ourselves silly again.. we stopped only like saying to each other we are like going to shit liaos LOL~

blahs so we headed to toilet and i saw ben there again hahas! then showed him the receipt's "FOC" he buay tahan again hahahhas! so yupps.. after that gave buddaye her bdae present, but she didnt bought mine lahs! so kns lor lols! LEO ZHI QING! I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN FOR MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT I TELL YOU! YOU'D BETTER NOT FORGET SIOLS~ xDD

hahahs so yupps.. walked to mrt station.. topped up our cards.. buddaye trained home.. i walked home from suntec again hahhahahas! thiss time i took a shorter path though.. thats why it took only 2 hours hahahs! ^^v~

NOTICE THE "DINE FOR FREE!" xD

yawnss~

2008-10-03T01:14:00.003+08:00

hahas these few days really nothing much to blog about bahs.. everyday is like just working and working lor.. kinda recovered from my bout of sickness liaos hahhahahas~ but during my recovery i still had food that i arent supposed to eat, but, who cares?! i believe in fighting poion with poison! nyahahhahahahhas~ x)) although my stomach still kinda hurts, budden i guess, its gonna recover soon lahs hor? at most die only mahhs hahhahhahas~ xD

but wait! if i should die, must wait until after our buffet date hor buddaye? HEHS! cant wait lahs! its like next monday! faster come faster come! cant wait to have my last feast rofl~ or maybe until my chalet is over on the 10th? nyahahhahahahs~ whatever, when i feeel that i've done what i wanna do then i can just sleeeeep and not wake up bahhs hahahhas~ WOOTS!

hehs~
in the meantime, i shall enjoy whatever remaining time i have now bahhs hahahhas~ alrights im off enjoying my konjiki no gash bell liaos! nyahahhahahas~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2008-10-01T01:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY
BIRTHDAY
BUDDAYE
LEO
ZHI
QING!

hahahs this post is dedicated to you!
happy or not?!
hehs~
xP

buddayes forever alrights?
cheeers!
enjoy your day lahs!
BUFFFEEEETTTT SOOON!
xDD

ROFL!`

2008-09-30T02:53:00.003+08:00

lols was laming around.. listening to old songs/finding old songs to put into my thumbdrive for work later on when i asked mh to guess what song was this..

"you wont admit you love me~
and so~
how am i ever~
to know~
you always tell me~
________,________,________..."

i asked her to guess song title and this is what she gave me!
=.=

omg this idea is not bad lahs!
i should come up with a song like this lahs!
nyahahahhahahahahs!

dots

2008-09-28T19:39:00.003+08:00

rofl~
somehow managed to apply for last minute off..
didnt even managed to wake myself up in the morning..
im exhausted both mentally and physically from all that vomiting!
yawns~

my stomach still hurts from all that pumping~
nyahahhahahahahahhas~
xD

dots

2008-09-28T01:12:00.004+08:00

my oesophagus hurts from all the hydrochloric acid being pumped out of the stomach!

my stomach hurts from all the pumping caused by the vomiting!

im exhausted le lahs! and i effing still have work later lahs!
fuck it lahs i shall go sleep..
its like 1am+ only..
so not my sleeeping time =.=
fuck it!
zzzzzzzzz!

fuck it!

2008-09-28T00:05:00.004+08:00

came back and vomitted my dinner..
after vomiting, my arse vomitted tooooooo~
what the fuck is wrong with my insides man?!
anyone willing to do insides transplants with me?
im really really sick of my insides lahs!

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!
im still holding back my vomit as im typing this!
i HATE vomiting lahhss!
dont fucking like the feeling!
i still havta work like till wed?
and im having this prob like since monday night?
fuck it man! =.=

i so dont wanna go to a doctor!
its an effing waste of money lahs!
zzzzzzzzzzzzz!
worst come to worst..
you guys wont see me online/around in school anymore nia mahs..
but dont worry!
i wont forget u guys!
i will drag some dowm to accompany me de!
so,
please hope youre the one being dragged down huhs!
:DD

i shall go puke again bahs..
off i go~
ciaos~

dots

2008-09-27T00:00:00.002+08:00

hahahas someone intro-ed me this video~
and i was hooooked!
nyahahhahahahs~
emo's the path to go!
whahahhahahahahhas!

alrights i shall go dispose of my waste thru my arse liaos~
ciaos~
=.=

omfg

2008-09-26T01:47:00.002+08:00

im having what i dread the most AGAIN!
D-I-A-R-R-H-E-A!
crap lahs..
somemore for 2 days liaos lor!
i think food poisoning le lahs..
makes me all weak and such!
effing hate it lahs can!
feeel like vomiting but nothing to vomit out!
cos i really havent been eating much..
=.=
fuck it man..
wonder how long more this will continue on..
even if its food poisoning,
small case only bahs..
cause i kenna 6 times food poisoning b4~
^^V
lets hope..
it goes away soon alright?

but in the meantime..
i shall enjoy losing abit of weight!
even if it kills me in the process!
V(.^^) (^^,)V~

woosa~

2008-09-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

2 new must watch MVs!

xDD

big hit big hit!
NYAHAHHAHAHAHHAS!

Wonder Girls - Nobody

i want nobody, nobody but you~
so true hahas!

and and!
DBSK! mirotic~

under my skin~~
xDD

and damn my paper cuts!
wrong! cardboard cuts from all that tying of boxes..
raffia "burns" as well!! i tied the boxes too fast! hahahhahs xP

bigbang~

2008-09-23T01:40:00.003+08:00

OMONA~

this is so cute rofl~

im kinda abandoning my english songs for kpop hahahas! all thanks to SOMEONE who got me hooked on bigbang.. either unintentionally or intentionally~ hahhahas~

xDD

this is kinda cute too LOL!

damn you all! im not gay! im NOT!
RAHHS!

^^

2008-09-20T00:29:00.006+08:00

18.09.08

went out with my long time buddy! supposed to watch the black swindler aka kurosagi one but as usual she last minute always change mind de hahahahs~ met her at 12pm at cineleisure! she's a tortoise cos she's late! xP yupps so we caught mamma mia at 1240pm! hahahas that show was nice! worth watching! all the classic ABBA songs can be heard~ but its sung by the cast from the movie lahs duhhs hehs.. so after movie.. walked around heeren abit, then go bugis street walk abit.. buddaye leo bought a tee.. i wanted to buy de, but didnt wanna touch me 50 bucks so didnt got what i want =.= yupps walked around bugis junction abit, trained down to amk's sumo house for dinner! chitchatted, walked around amk hub abit and she bus-sed home! i bus-sed home too! slept around 3+? was chatting with you know who hahahs xP ^^ hahahs yupps guess thats it bahs?

19.09.08

had work today! lols.. no effing customers for the whole afternoon! standing there like an idiot waiting for sales to come lols.. almost forgot to have lunch hahahs.. yarhs lucky at night got sales else i think i will rot whole day le.. hmmms then yupps, when i reached home, i was like hungry? then i think think think, yuan lai i havent eat dinner! i totally forgot about dinnerr LOL! i know its impossible but i did! =.= hahahs so i was complaining to dear and guess what? she did these for me! omg so touched hahahhas! love her to bits lahs! omg omg omg! xDD

CHICKEN RICE!

MAGGI MEE!

LAKSA!

ROTI PRATA!

hahahhas so cute of her can?! xD seriously lols, i think she will be the one i will forever be in love with hahahahs! xDD

alrights! i think thats it for today? i shall go do my stuffs liaos! i have work still lahs! my legs are seriously breaking apart from all that stress! T_T CIAOS!!

UBIN!

2008-09-14T00:47:00.013+08:00

12/09/08! FRIDAY!

hahas that day was a fun day! cos i went ubin with my classmates and coursemates! hahahs and the one who organized this outing was me! MUAHAHHAHAHAHHAS! yupps as i couldnt really get to sleep the night before, i kinda fell asleep like 4am? and i have to wake by 6am? cos im meeting them at tanah merah mrt at 8! hahahhahs~

yupps i was the 3rd to reach? but i reached 8 am SHARP on the dot! hahahhas.. the lastest one came at 0830!! jiayin was pissed off by then as she was already waiting at the jetty at changi village! oops =X took a bus, met up with 3 others.. and boatted over.. hahs upon arriving, we took some photos, applied HONG YU! and went to rent bike! hahhas.. yupps bought mineral water at provision shop and off we went! a total of 17 turned up yupp hahas!

hahahhas as there was this forked road, we decided to head left first! hahas cycle until like mad sias.. uphill part most gave up and pushed their bikes up, including me! i wanted to save energy for later in the day hahahs! passed by that accident site! where the poor mother died after flying off her bike! some of us spooked and decided to get away from there as fast as possible! and its no wonder so many accidents were said to happen there, the steep slope and the sudden turn! who can survive that but pros? yupps.. anyways.. condolences! *silenceeeee*

yarhs so were like as far as we can go on one side liaos, and since it was a dead end, we cycled back to that "place" and rested for awhile, then headed back to starting point and had our lunch at a restaurant there.. ohya did i mention it was RAINING all the while? hahahs everyone was like wet hahahs! mud everywhere also! hehs! xDD

yarhs after charging ourselves, we continued part 2 of our trip! destination: chek jawa! hahahhas! my favourite place to go! i love the shorelife lahs! but tooo bad they didnt walk there, some idiots just refused to move their butts! rahhhhs! so missed quite alot of nice views luhhs~ T_T yarhs on the way there, it was drizzling but we didnt bother le.. about 6 of us climbed a watch tower which is taller than trees! the view is so nice lahs! hehs! yarhs cam-whored abit up there and headed back to starting point! hahahhas! as it was like almost time to be packing up and going home liaos hahas! ohya we went to this visitor house also! so nice lahs! inside got those dead shorelife specimens, a fish tank, and a pathway that leads out to the sea!!! went to the end of the pathway to enjoy the breeeze with about 9/10 of whats there and cam-whored! xD blahhs~ ohya! i spotted this dog with a bite inflicted from another dog i think.. the wound is on its neck lahs! a hole can! EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!! T_T poor thing haish~

boated back, had a sucky dinner? then bussed back home.. halfway stomach super pain! stopped at eunos, since liyan got down too, we "sneaked" inside a condo to look for toilet hahahs.. did my business and found liyan waiting for my outside! omg i feel so bad hahas.. yupps bade her farewell then i walked back opposite de busstop bussed home.. kuku 93 wait so long =.= slept on the bus and almost overslept! hahhas.. got home showered, use comp for awhile and dozed off at 12 sharp cos i promised Mak i'll be asleep by 12 and i did! miracle happened! xD guess i was too tired, thighs and but aching too! so yupps! off to dreamland i went! xP

have you ever?

2008-09-10T01:10:00.005+08:00

have you ever...
been in a room so quiet..
so much so that the silence is deafening?

have you ever...
been in a crowd yet you feel all alone?
with everyone just walking past you?

have you ever...
needed something so bad..
you can't sleep at night?

have you ever...
tried to find the words..
but they don't come out right?

have you ever...
loved somebody so much..
it makes you cry?

have you ever...
found someone you're willing to give your heart to..
only to find them not giving theirs to you?

have you ever...
tried finding the words for you to stay in their hearts..
but can't come up with anything and don't know where to start from?

have you ever...
had your heart stolen by someone..
only for it to be treated as a toy?

have you ever...
felt like the whole world is crashing down on you..
and just feel like breaking down and cry?

have you ever...
cried so much..
so much so your tear ducts are dried up?

have you ever...
been played so much you don't even know yourself anymore?
so much so your heart died?

have you ever???

hurrs~

2008-09-07T01:26:00.003+08:00

hurrss~ omg lahs i so wanna cry now lahhs~ sobbssssssss lahs! actually yarhs im slow lahs but.. im starting to watch 1 litre of tears! rene mei showed me a short MV about that drama~ just a short clip is enough to mess up whatever heart is there left in me lor!

its like the title says:
1 Litre Of Tears!

can make you cry buckets one lor! yarhs the determination showed by this girl named "Aya" to try "to live" even though she has this incurable disease called "Spinocerebellar Atrophy".. yarhs the neurons in her brain will just cease to function and thus cause the body to lose their functions even though the person want's to do or tries to do something..

she ends up dying at a young age of 25.. and its based on a TRUE STORY!! yarhs for further details.. just watch that freaking show lahs! confirm you wont regret one! yupps yupps! for your convenience, heres where you can find the show! http://www.instantz.net/japanese/jdrama/1_Litre_of_Tears.html hahhahahas~ enjoy~

fuck~

2008-09-05T14:33:00.002+08:00

ohkays im typing like this just to disturb mei hsin hahahahs! here goes nothing~

wa fucking sians de lor.. people holidays go out fucking enjoy themselves while i fucking stay at home and rot.. stay up late into the fucking night only to wake up late in the fucking afternoon.. few days of doing this fucking schedule is gradually turning me into some fucking couch potato! so much so that im supposed to fucking collect my fucked up lappy from the fucking service center but yet im fucking lazy to even go cook my fucking lunch! haish life is fucking boring~ blahhhs i go fucking stone the day away again lahs zzzzzz!

YAWNS!~

2008-09-03T21:40:00.002+08:00

hahahahhas! life is fucking boring.. i so fucking hate holidays till the extent i wish it nvr fucking existed! i dont mind a day or two off this damned life for rest.. but too much and i will find it fucking irritating! if you think stoning at home for almost 1 and a half months is fun.. try it for yourself and see whether you like it or not.. jio friends out you may say.. but.. no money, working, im busy, booked liaos is all you will get as replies.. arghs so i wont bother le.. think after the UBIN trip and sentosa trip with mak mak next week, i'll be spending the rest of my life STONING away.. soo looking forward to STONING! sleeping late in the night.. only to wake up late into the afternoon.. yarhs i shall enjoy this "COLOURFUL" life of black and white :D

anyways here are some overdued pictures which i koped from joanna hahahahs!

POST!~

2008-09-01T22:57:00.005+08:00

muahhhahas.. pardon me for typing like a kuku later on in the post.. cos i made a promise with someone to type liddat hhahahhas!

yarhs as i was saying.. wo gen (me and) jas decided to blog zhe yang (like this).. yin wei (because) AUDREY MAK SHI MIN
shi zhe yang (like this) talk one! xD

hahahs.. early in the zao shang (morning), audrey morning call wo (me) wake up.. cos ta (she) scared wo hui (i'll be) late when we meet up later.. it was like 1015 in the zao shang (morning) when my dian hua (phone) rang.. so i jie (picked up) phone and answered ta (her) "orhhh", "orrrhhh" and "orhhhhs" hahahahs! yarhs after like shi tou-ing (stoning) for very long, i finally go chong liang (shower) and prepare to chu men (go out) liaos.. waited for ba shi (bus) 147 to head down to duo fo (dover) mrt station..

yarhs audrey was there deng-ing wo liaos.. ta (she) refused to come out of the station and prefer to just zuo (sit) still inside the platform area.. so wo (i) tapped in and shang qu (went up) to look for ta (her).. pei ta (accompanied her) for like 45 fen zhong (minutes) before jasmine lai (came).. yarhs then wo men (we) took the train down to duo mei ge (dhoby ghaut) station.. went golden village wanted to buy xi piao (movie tickets) for money no enough 2 de.. budden all the seats mai wan liaos (sold out already).. so we zou (walked) over to The Cathay and finally decided to watch Wall-E there.. budden something hao xiao (funny) happened again.. i lazy type this bu fen (part) so i kope from you lahs hor jas? =X

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While queuing for the tickets, AUDREY MAK asked jas to call laowang and she said:
"你在 (ni zai) where?"
"为什么你什么 (wei shen me ni shen me) movie also watch already?"
"王八蛋，你跟我 (wang ba dan, ni gen wo) faster roll down hor"
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POWDERFUL SIAS! xD yarhs then after movie go niu che shui (chinatown) walk abit.. attempting to zao (find) jasmine's lensless specs hahhas but too bad cannot find.. then jiu take bus hui jia (go home) liaos.. but at the busstop, we did something evil again hahahhas~ here goes~ sorry kope from you again =X

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Mak Mak 很(hen) pro lor. LOL LOL LOL!
jas 跟我(gen wo) keep laughing at her, then trick her.
jas even asked her...
"Mak! 你现在(ni xian zai) go where?"
And she replied....
"我现在（wo xian zai) go home"
then she realised..
"eh, no, I'm going home now"
"你们很(ni men hen) bad leh!"
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hahahhahs~ xD yarhs.. as i wanted go vivo see something.. pei audrey bus home awhile then wo jiu (i then) went vivo zou zou kan kan (walk walk see see) things.. end up dont have what im looking for so i headed home for my FENG FU de (sumptous) dinner hahahas..

yarhs i guess thats it.. typing like this can really ruin my language command.. THANKS ARHS AUDREY MAK! xD hahahhas... anyways.. Wall-E is nice.. cute and entertaining hahahs! you guys should go catch it hehs! xD

perhaps

2008-09-01T02:03:00.003+08:00

PERHAPS

perhaps..
i shall let go..
let go of this false hope i've been clinging on to..
perhaps..
i shouldnt even have felt that way in the first place..
so much so it hurts..
perhaps..
i should just give up on my effort..
the effort to love someone..
loving someone..
requires a heart..
that "heart" i've been searching for..
never came back to me!
perhaps..
my very heart has been robbed..
robbed and played with..
played and then disposed of indiscriminately..
perhaps..
i shall give up searching for my heart..
and let it just bleed to death..
perhaps..
i should just cease to exist...
and not give a fucking damn about this world..]

perhaps...

2008-08-30T01:30:00.008+08:00

lols went back to secondary school like after so long.. alot of things changed, teachers changed but some remained though hahahas.. didnt really planned to go back de.. but thanks to SOMEONE i was asked to go back hahas.. yupps yupps so i was woken up exactly at 0630.. thanks arrhs jasmine =.=" 2.5 hours of sleep is SOOOO not enough! xD

yupps met them at dawson place then went in together.. by then the national anthemn sing finish lohhs~ heng arhs hahahahas~ then erms yarhs we watched the sec 3 perform, then grand finale.. erms saw people whom i have not seeen for a very long time lols.. kuku eric loh still as kuku as ever LOL! hmmms.. yarhs then we went dawson slack liaos.. then erms pei audrey take bus, she go harbourfront, i took train go kallang meet my classmates..

reached liaos end up that stupid penguin late for almost an hour zzz.. wait until pek chek hahahs.. yupps yupps then went kallang leisure park with jiayin, joanna, kaven, penguin and jj.. had lunch and then went for ICE SKATING! muahahahhahas~
skated for 2 hours~ $18.50 lols.. yupps yupps we were like hugging the walls when we first stepped into the rink.. only jiayin and skate LOL! blahs then got more adventurous and gave up the wall hahahs~ SOON, the rink started to MELT slowly lols~ then everyone was like starting to slip and fall LOL! including me hahahs now my knees and hands and butt hurt hahahs~ blahsss~ after watching them resurfacing the ice, we left for suntec it fair.. then had dinner at esplanade~ yupps yupps.. jiayin went home.. kaven went home.. jj went home.. penguin went home.. joanna went home.. then lalals dont know why i started walking~

walk walk walk walk~ walked from marina square till home in queensway ahhahas.. took me 2 hours and erms 40 mins? hahahs.. dont believe i walked home? got pictures prove ohkays! =PP

ohkays here goes~ from esplanade, to marina square to raffles city, to funan it mall to parliament tp clarke quay to chinatown to tanjong pagar to henderson/bt merah and after like that fucking long stretch, finallly i seee my block~ xD

beneath those smiles.. im FUCKED UP INSIDE.. THOROUGHLY! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fucking gonna break aparrt soon! fuck it!