lols went back to secondary school like after so long.. alot of things changed, teachers changed but some remained though hahahas.. didnt really planned to go back de.. but thanks to SOMEONE i was asked to go back hahas.. yupps yupps so i was woken up exactly at 0630.. thanks arrhs jasmine =.=" 2.5 hours of sleep is SOOOO not enough! xD

yupps met them at dawson place then went in together.. by then the national anthemn sing finish lohhs~ heng arhs hahahahas~ then erms yarhs we watched the sec 3 perform, then grand finale.. erms saw people whom i have not seeen for a very long time lols.. kuku eric loh still as kuku as ever LOL! hmmms.. yarhs then we went dawson slack liaos.. then erms pei audrey take bus, she go harbourfront, i took train go kallang meet my classmates..

reached liaos end up that stupid penguin late for almost an hour zzz.. wait until pek chek hahahs.. yupps yupps then went kallang leisure park with jiayin, joanna, kaven, penguin and jj.. had lunch and then went for ICE SKATING! muahahahhahas~
skated for 2 hours~ $18.50 lols.. yupps yupps we were like hugging the walls when we first stepped into the rink.. only jiayin and skate LOL! blahs then got more adventurous and gave up the wall hahahs~ SOON, the rink started to MELT slowly lols~ then everyone was like starting to slip and fall LOL! including me hahahs now my knees and hands and butt hurt hahahs~ blahsss~ after watching them resurfacing the ice, we left for suntec it fair.. then had dinner at esplanade~ yupps yupps.. jiayin went home.. kaven went home.. jj went home.. penguin went home.. joanna went home.. then lalals dont know why i started walking~

walk walk walk walk~ walked from marina square till home in queensway ahhahas.. took me 2 hours and erms 40 mins? hahahs.. dont believe i walked home? got pictures prove ohkays! =PP

ohkays here goes~ from esplanade, to marina square to raffles city, to funan it mall to parliament tp clarke quay to chinatown to tanjong pagar to henderson/bt merah and after like that fucking long stretch, finallly i seee my block~ xD


























beneath those smiles.. im FUCKED UP INSIDE.. THOROUGHLY! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fucking gonna break aparrt soon! fuck it!

love..
it comes to you in the funniest of ways
when you dun intend to find it..
it just comes..

then here's the funny part..
the harder you try to catch it when it comes..
the more you realize
its trying to get away from you..

you can chase after it with all you have..
but somehow..
you will just find yourself waking up..
finding it to be just a terrible dream..
a NIGHTMARE as you may call it..
and everything..
was just your wishful thinking..

you (yes you reading this post)may not agree with me..
but some of them will..
for they have had this nightmare too many a times..
hmmmmmmmsss.....

IM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG NOW! it just makes me feel all warm inside.. somehow.. the feel is there, even though i don't understand japanese! yupps enjoy~

Its by Ayaka - Okaeri

Okaeri sweet home
Kaeru bashou yeah
Ai wo arigatou

Mata heiki no furi wo shite
Kanashimi no iro wo nuritsubushite
Waratte shimaun desu
Shinjiru koto no taisetsusa
Wakatteru no ni iza to iu toki
Utagatte shimau yeah

Karappo no karada
Nagareru toki ni
Fuiteshimaisou ni naru kedo
Anata no koto dakishimetai
Kono kimochi katsugi ugokasu no

Okaeri I'm home
Hitogoto de mitasareru kokoro
Okaeri sweet home
Kaeru bashou yeah
Ai wo arigatou
Sweet home

Jibun no koto bakkari wo
Kangaeru otona wa zuruin da to
Omotteitan desu
Demo hisshi ni kaeru koto wo
Sakenderu hito mo iru'n da
Yatto shitta'n desu

Atarimae no shiawase nanka
Kono sekai ni hitotsu mo nai
Anata no tame, sou omoeta
Kono kimochi katsugi ugokasu no

Okaeri I'm home
Supiido ga kasokushiteku mainichi
Okaeri sweet home
Kawaranai zutto aru keshiki
Sweet heart

Sagashite nakushita
Kokoro no kizu ga
Tachimukau tsuyosa ni kawareta no wa
"okaeri" ga atta kara

Okaeri I´m home
Hitogoto de mitasareru kokoro
Okaeri sweet home
Kaeru bashou yeah
Ai wo arigatou

Okaeri I'm home
Daijoubu anata ga iru kara
Okaeri sweet home
Mattete ne mou sugu tsuku kara
Sweet home
Oh yeah
Okaeri…sweet heart~

something's not right somewhere..
i know it..
somehow deep inside..
someone's telling me something..
telling me to let go of this hope inside me..
hahahahahs~
should i?
well..
maybe i'll just wait awhile more..
yepps i should..
its better to try then to give up huhs?
i don't know lahs~
guess im deceiving myself?
lying to myself all this while..
it aint fun!
but i dont know why im doing that?
i just..
DON'T KNOW MYSELF ANYMORE!!


hmmmmmms..
these lyrics are so nice..
kinda describes how i feel?
dont know lahhs..
just have that kind of "feel" towards these lines of words..
yupps here goes~


Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something..
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but,
Nothing's turned out how you wanted?


yarhs nothing ever turns out how i want it to be.. don't know why also.. maybe im cursed? some of my friends do agree that im cursed.. well, i thought so too! xD hahahhas.. anyways, shall start searching for my heart! HEARTO KUN~ where are you?? dai jyo bu~ it should be safe now? come out please? ONEGAI! O NE GAI! ='((

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmss..
i really dont know if i should continue what im doing..
somehow..
i think..
it wont end right..
yupps..
so..
dont know lahs!
haish~
maybe i should try?
maybe i shouldnt?
its just so.....................................



tell me how to win your heart~
for i haven't got a clue~
but let me start by saying..
i love you~
=XX


ANYWAYS!
1 MINUTE SILENCE FOR MY DECEASED CLOWNFISH!
:((

should i give up on what im doing?
or should i say..
give up on what im trying to do?
i don't know if im doing the right thing..
i don't know if things will work out..
is it all just my wishful thinking?
i don't know..
i seriously don't know!!!
there's just so many things i wanna say..
but im afraid..
im fucking afraid!
im afraid things will turn out the way which i hate will turn out to be..
im just fucking haunted by those idiots!
they just won't go away no matter how hard i wished for them to go..
its like a constant reminder..
how awful a human heart can get..

do i even have a heart now??
i doubt myself!
guessed someone robbed me of my heart..
trampled!
stabbed!
torn!
shredded!
minced into pulp juice!
and poured down a drainage pipe!

this irreversible damage just sucks..
sucks to the core..
sucks so much i dont even know myself anymore!
the jonathan you guys are seeing aren't the real me..
the real me died long ago!
its just a front i put up..
i dont like laughing loudly..
i dont like attracting attention..
i prefer shutting myself in..
ever wondered why i shut myself with my mp3 player?
only songs can express how i feel..
only songs say what i want to say..
so fuck off if you hate music you people call OLDIES!
i don't care if im hated..
so hate me for all i care!
i wont give a shit..
this I SWEAR!
:D

oh yeah..
one more thing..

FUCK THIS
CRUEL LIFE!
=]]

jasmine tagged me with this survey claiming that i was bored and asked me to do it.. but im kind! i shall not tag anyone next and let this die! :D


[10] Firsts.
First Best Friend: do i even have one? hmms.. i think its zhiqing bahs.. =)) honoured not your name here HAHA!
First Screen Name: Ooi Chang Wei Jonathan?
First Pet: Terrapin.. after which.. a whole long list of animals :D
First Piercings: none.. sadly..
First Crush: think it was pri.. ermms... 5 or 6?
First CD: 5566 =.=
First Car: no time go take license how to have car? toy cars alot though~
First Love: SOPHIA DEAR! :D
First Place called Home: Holland Village

[9] Lasts.
Last Beverage: Iced Water?
Last Car Ride: forgot.. was travelling around singapore like almost everyday..
Last Movie Seen: Murder Of The Inugami Clan
Last Phone Call: Jonathan? to inform him we're going out to study?
Last Song You Listened To: Brian McKnight - Back At One
Last Bubble Bath: yarhs like jes said "Gimme a bathtub first! :X" LOL!
Last Time You Cried: i cried myself to sleep last night! :D
Last Thing You Ate: some steamed cake my big auntie bought from japan =.=
Last Bad Thing You Did: fuck that person so badly she wished she never existed :D


[8] Have You Evers.
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friend(s): hahas duhh! hors zhiqing hor? =P
Have You Ever Been Arrested: erms nope?
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: erms nope?
Have You Ever Been On A Limo: real limo no lahs.. but limo cab alot of times! =P
Have You Ever Cheated: yupps.. so much so the pain wont heal.
Have You Ever Been In Love: uh huhs.
Have You Ever Been In A Car Accident: nopes
Have You Ever Broken A Bone: nopes


[7] Things You Are Wearing.
1. T-shirt
2. pants
3. undergarment
4. hair
5. fingernail
6. toenails (LOL!)


[6] Things You've Done Today.
1. SMSed
2. EMOed
3. REFORMATed LAPPY BUT TO NO AVAIL
4. EMOed
5. EMOed
6. am still EMOing..

[5] Favourite Things.
1. TIRAMISU!
2. TIRAMISU!
3. TIRAMISU!
4. TIRAMISU!
5. last but not least.. EMO!


[4] People You Tell Almost Anything To.
1. Zhi Qing (buddy mahhs, no secrets :D)
2. those who i think are deem fit to do so =X


[3] Choices.
1. Black Or White: BLACK :D
2. Hot Or Cold: COLD :D
3. Chocolate Or Vanilla: VANILLA :D


[2] Things You Want To Do Before You Die.
1. i live each day as it comes.. dont even know what i want to accomplish =.=
2. refer to statement 1..


[1] Things You Regret.
you really want to know? ok.. here goes nothing..
i REGRET ever being BORNED INTO THIS FUCKING CRUEL WORLD!

ok...
my lappy officially died!
time of death: 2320 PM
date of death: 20.08.2008
reason: harddisks crashed beyond repair..

HAISH!

FUCK IT!

dammit!
damn every single thing!
nothing ever goes right for me!
this fucking cursed life..
freaking lappy giving me probs..
msn shuffling my contacts in groups i didnt even sort them in..
can't even stone at home peacefully!
what did i even do to deserve this shit?!
FUCK THIS FUCKING SCREWED LIFE!
ZZZZZZZZZZ!

TI
RA
MI
SU
!!
:D


apart from that.. fuck everything! =))

Im on the verge of going crazy!
and my heart's in pain!
No one can hear,
but i'm screaming so loud!
i feel like i'm all alone,
in a faceless crowd..





its been so long!
i feel so out of touch..
thoughts cloud my heart and head,
i think i think too much?
maybe i am..
maybe im not?
i don't know!!!
i just don't know what to do anymore!
:((

my heart hurts!
it hurts so much!
so much its unbearable!
i dont know why too...
what is causing me this much pain?!
where's the cure?!
i doubt there would even be one?
blahs i dont know~
wish this pain would just go away!
anymore and maybe i'll just give up!
im on the verge of breaking down..
everything is just mounting up...
bit by bit..
slowly but surely..
many times i've wished to give up..
to give up on life..
EVERYTHING!
surely, at least..
there's something for me to cling on to?!
haish i dont know..
i just...
ARGHS!





your unexpected love provides my solitary suicide~

SATURDAY!

woke up late, went bedok south for lunch with family, then met up at jy's house, jonny and sh went over too hahas.. studied until 7+, went TM eat and went home.. super summarized! :D

FRIDAY!

hahas.. went school just to submit a javaflowchart.. what a waste of time! xD but its worth it cos i assure myself that at least i can pass that kuku subject! xD

yupps so after school met jess at buona vista.. had lunch at holland drive market and then went holland V for ICECREAM!!! xD you know Cold Rock? that uber nice place with uber nice icecream! hahahahhas! yupps slacked there for awhile cos weather outside was murderous, didnt wanna leave the comfy airconditioned place! hahas walked around holland v before our icecream.. i SO SO SO SO SO SO SO MISS holland V lahs! my old hometown.. why did we have to move?! T_T ahhahas.. went pet safari go see doggies and hammies~ lols.. so cute lahs! jess was like going "its telling me to bring him/her home" hahahahs~ =X yarhs whatever lols..

yupps took a bus down to orchard as we decided to catch a movie.. The Murder Of Inugami Clan.. Sounds nice, mysterious, action~ BUT didnt really expect that the so called "action, deceit, murder etc etc" turned out to be funny instead LOL! AND HOR AND HOR! we spotted this super NIANG uncle LOL! hair machiam like auntie.. straight, then curls at the end.. had earrings i think? wore singlet, jeans worn uber high! hahahahs omg walks like some eeeee~ NIANG LAHS! LOL! both jess and i cannot tahan his actions and we kept imitating him/her/it lahs LOL! movie ended like around 2150? and we headed for dinner.. kept walking around looking for a place to slack and eat and ended up at MOS burger.. slacked and finally moved when they said they are closing lols.. walked her to train stn, and i walked to busstop to bus home..

yupps~ guess thats it lols.. and i SO WANNA WATCH DEATH RACE! xD cant wait cant wait! muahahahhahahahas~

hahas.. havent really been blogging these few days but whatever~ hahahahs!

IM SICK! YES IM STILL SICK! WOOTS!

xD

hahas.. schoool holidays are coming! i can't wait! BUT.. before holidays come exams! damn! 2 freaking hard papers which are totally IRRELAVANT to my info-comm course! like wth?! zZZzzz.. hahas nvm persevere! can't wait for the ubin trip! but why am i always the one planning? T_T

hehs.. blahs nothing much to say about also lols.. shall let pics do the talking! hahahahas!


dunno kaven looking at what lols~

OH YA AND THIS PICTURE RAWKS SOCKS! xD


HAHAHAHHAS! funny right?! lols! blahs i guess thats it bahs.. got photos i upload again.. just reformatted my lappy, wanna go reinstalling tons of things liaos! xD

PS: Hope i get well sooon! and those that are sick also! same goes to Jess~ hahas~ =P

*YAWNSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS*

slept at 3++++++ hahahahhas! am still tired now lols.. woke up but stoned damn long, lols.. called jess but its too late for her mac breakfast! =X hahas.. chatted awhile then i go prepare go out liaos.. am meeting zhenlin, junting and weian in town for finalizing our ppt slides for the webapp presentation hahas.. kaven, derrence and iylia went also lols.. yupps so after like 2 hours? finalize everything liaos, those wanna go de went, left me, zl, kaven and derrence go jalan jalan makan lunch.. we went taka basement there Udon-Bo? had lunch hahas.. yupps yupps walked around for abit then went home lohhs.. so sians lahs.. feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel like just giving up on life and not care about anything anymore! ARGHS!

PS: IM FALLING SICK! LIKE FINALLY!!! WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! xD

anyways here are the photos i took from yesterday's buffet and some random shots~ enjoy~ =P






they think its funny, serving such small portions on a big plate =.="






hahas.. i pity the crayfishes lahs! 2 whole plates, stripped bare of flesh, with the head left only hahas! they serve out, me and my bro attack! MUAHAHAHHAHS! think everyone was like staring at us LOL! who cares, we made our money worth lalalas~ and hor, if you dare, next time right, scoop a bowl of chocolate from the chocolate fondue, and dip your prawn flesh/crayfish (steamed and not with any sauce/gravy DUHH!) in it! IT TASTES ABSOLUTELY HEAVENLY! xD trust me! ;D

YAWNS! i shan't count the days anymore i guess =.=" but one last time lahs hor? 1 month 2 days! LOL! blahs whatever~

HMMMMMSSS later going out for Pariss International Buffet! CANT WAIT! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! im sooooooooooooooooo gonna stuff myself silly! xD photos will be taken so just wait mUAHAHAHHAHAHAS! xD

FRIDAY!

yarhs so yesterday... HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.. almost late for school, somehow i just snoooozed and refused to get up hahas! =P so yupps, reached school 0915 hahas! had comprog first thing in the morning, killing my brain cells for the rest of the day muahahahah! since there was no maths lecture, we decided to go have something to eat after comprog.. then all decided not to go engine fund lecture also LOL! yupps so smsed jess and arranged to meet her earlier in town lols.. chi bao liaos all go home lohhs~

took a train down to orchard.. was halfway liaos then jess say she forget take collection slip out! how nice~ lols.. blahs so no choice waited for her hahas.. during which i went TANGS and kajiao people again muahahahhahahas! yupps yupps then she say she at amk liaos so i slowly walk to mrt station wait her.. hid behind that wall and she still managed to spot me.. STALKER SIAS! =X

blahs went wisma, pei her collect her phone from sony ericsson hahas.. she sent in her phone for repair lols.. tell you guys smthing funny, on our way there, someone stopped us and said " i see you guys have the style im looking for.. im currently looking for new faces for my magazine/photoshoot/i-forgot-what-that-person-said-liaos.. would you guys be interested?" LOL! then we 2 were like.. "NO THANK YOU!" and hurried off hahahahhas~

erms.. afterwards we went tg pagar for lunch.. the food court inside amara hotel there sells SUPER NICE KATSU DON! ahhahahas since she said she's meeting her friend at tg pagar, so i suggested we go there had lunch lor.. ("pssst~ i had curry cutlet rice during the break just now =X") yupps yupps so walked around abit after lunch to wait for her friend.. yupps yupps then her friend came and we walked to some street where they did manicure/pedicure lols.. i went home after walking them to that shop lols..

WEATHER SO EFFING HOT LAHS! reached home 4+, 5pm.. showered and jumped straight to bed and napped till 8+pm LOL! =X freaking tired lahs.. may collapse anytime! xD so please help me dial "995" if you see me fainting out of a sudden hor! =P

TO THAT PERSON READING THIS.. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! HAA! JUST WANNA TELL YOU THAT I DONT MISS YOU.. NEITHER DID I LET MYSELF BE AFFECTED BY YOU! YOU GET ME?! SO JUST SHOO OFF AND NOT INTEFERE WITH MY LIFE ANYMORE.. I GAVE YOU A CHANCE, AND I WONT BE GIVING IT TO YOU EVER AGAIN! I REPEAT.. EVER!

=]

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I WANNA RANT!!! 27 DAYS LE LEHS! HOW CAN?! T_T arghs lahhs LOL! blahs whatever~

erms.. today had wrtoral presentation, so must wear formal go school.. stupid weather also dont know how to pei he yi xia one! know i will be in full black the weather still effing hot LOL! blahs reached school 10.15! =X heng arhs no late lol! blahs.. was the 2nd last one to present hahas! heng arhs got A- for my presentation HAHA! was shocking everyone with my values LOL! cos i said, in 100ml of coke, there's 420kcal (which i expanded to 420,000calories), just to make numbers bigger LOL! yarhs like i was saying, then if you drink like 1.5L of coke, you are consuming 6,300,000 calories! LOL! i was directly shooting this presentation at junjie lahs! he love coke so much ==" hahahas~

hmmmmmmmmss.. after one last presentation, we stayed back in the LT for some nonsense shots.. then went schoool de bistro eat, cos i wanna stay in airconditioned places cos its like so effing hot! arghs blahs so went there had Penne and waffle with icecream.. costs $6.80 for both of them, quite worth the price cos it tastes quite nice hahas..





RAHHS! so after that we went library slack! also i suggest cos library aircon best LOL! i just wanna stay out of the sun! so effing hot LOL! we like so bad lahs, one girl found a cosy corner and was napping there, we went there and make noise LOL! then she packed her things super loudly and stomped away LOL! then i turned to kaven and said "mission accomplished!" xD

soon it was 2pm and those that wanna leave left, remaining de went extra maths lecture hahas.. today's lecture killed my brain cells LOL! too overwhelming liaos MUAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHS! so yupps.. lecture ended late.. =.= took bus to tamp, trained home, slept on train like almost instantly, bussed home from redhill, reached home, collapse on floor KO! xD

yarhs.. thats it? fed my fish.. and here i am blogging.. shall mug abit later HAHA! tmr got maths quiz i havent study! ZZZZZZ~







i love my hair now LOL! =P

hahas.. today(sunday) is a boring day! and the 24th DAY! =.= yupps.. woke up around 1pm+ cos i slept at 3am+ lols.. washed up and headed out for lunch at braddell.. that chicken rice balls shop lols.. father say want go try, end up not really that nice, malaysia one still nicer! xD hahas blahs.. go pump petrol, send bro go swimming, and headed home.. erms.. 5+? i straightaway went in my room and collapsed on the floor.. napped till 7+ then kenna woken up by parents to go down for dinner hahahahas! my days are all about sleeping and eating lols! yupps after dinner, went G2000 bought a pants for presentation purposes =.= $33 only lehs! so nice yet so cheap LOL! zhuan dao HAHA! g2000 having offer yupps lols.. bought another Tee for $10.. then i forgot i needed a belt, was walking around, and since anchorpoint doesnt have much shops, i walked in Pedro and saw my belt LOL! $59 ehhs! but its nice lahs so its worth the money hahas! blahs whatever~ hehs.. walked home happily, temporarily forgetting the fact that i didnt saw her today =.= T_T LOL! blahhs.. guess thats all for today? as for the formal suit, wait till wed's or thurs's post then i post bahs! HAHAHHAS!

CIAOS! xD

though the date states sunday! but i so wanna make it a saturday hahas.. cos sunday means 24 days! saturday means 23 DAYS! ok im lying to myself but whatever luhhhs! =P

erms met jonny and jiayin in the afternoon to study for maths.. then followed jonny went home take money top up ezlink card while jiayin and i sat downstairs chatting and waiting for him, we then took a bus down to jiayin's house and waited for her friend to come.. yupps then we headed down to changi village there de chalet for her brother's 21st birthday hahas..

so yupps went there for dinner ahhas free dinner lols! =X she also say wanna go there for free dinner hahhahahas~ hmmms.. yupps yupps, her mum offered us red wine to drink but we spotted vodka instead! but since it wasnt opened then we waited lor.. jiayin's friend, jonny, her mum and her bro's bf played mahjong while me and jiayin played djmax lols.. then when i walked to the toilet, guess what?! i saw the vodka bottle being opened! xD had a glass MUAHAHAHHAS! 40% alcohol NYAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAS! omg alcohol rules man! xD blahs jiaying had a glass too, but her mum snatched away and drank LOL! that jonny also useless de, drink abit like high liaos =X ahahhahahas! xD blahs BBQed some marshmellows, wished her bro happy birthday and went off le.. went changi beach slacked awhile hahas.. yupps then i wanna leave le so all left liaos.. as we were walking back we decided go see ah guas! ahhas was dissapointed in the first place cos we spotted none! then i saw one in the corner and we 4 purposely walk past "her" lols.. zitao bottom half of the butt till the feet can be seen clearly LOL! figure so nice lahhs! but too bad is ah gua LOL! blahs whatever, cabbed home afterwards.. stoned, showered and here i am..

ohya.. monday im soooo going to scold jiayin.. =.= i shant say it here.. =.=

HAISH! 22 DAYS LE LAHS! still no sight of you!! T_T blahssss! whatever luhhs! T_T hmmms...

went schoool early today cos didnt wanna kenna warning letter again LOL! blahs.. after school go TM eat.. then watched The Mummy 3! kinda dissapointing compared to the first 2 movies but whatever~ LALALALA~ so coool lahs! i want a yeti as a pet too! xD HEHS! hmmmmmms.. then trained to orchard, go TANGS find people say hi then bussed home liaos.. reached home 9pm.. stoned infront of tv till 10++ then go shower, fed my beloved children and here i am! hahas.. alrights i guess thats it for today? hahas im off to watch my anime lohhs! xD


BANGS RULES! :D