lols was laming around.. listening to old songs/finding old songs to put into my thumbdrive for work later on when i asked mh to guess what song was this..

"you wont admit you love me~
and so~
how am i ever~
to know~
you always tell me~
________,________,________..."

i asked her to guess song title and this is what she gave me!
=.=




omg this idea is not bad lahs!
i should come up with a song like this lahs!
nyahahahhahahahahs!

rofl~
somehow managed to apply for last minute off..
didnt even managed to wake myself up in the morning..
im exhausted both mentally and physically from all that vomiting!
yawns~

my stomach still hurts from all that pumping~
nyahahhahahahahahhas~
xD

my oesophagus hurts from all the hydrochloric acid being pumped out of the stomach!

my stomach hurts from all the pumping caused by the vomiting!

im exhausted le lahs! and i effing still have work later lahs!
fuck it lahs i shall go sleep..
its like 1am+ only..
so not my sleeeping time =.=
fuck it!
zzzzzzzzz!

came back and vomitted my dinner..
after vomiting, my arse vomitted tooooooo~
what the fuck is wrong with my insides man?!
anyone willing to do insides transplants with me?
im really really sick of my insides lahs!

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!
im still holding back my vomit as im typing this!
i HATE vomiting lahhss!
dont fucking like the feeling!
i still havta work like till wed?
and im having this prob like since monday night?
fuck it man! =.=

i so dont wanna go to a doctor!
its an effing waste of money lahs!
zzzzzzzzzzzzz!
worst come to worst..
you guys wont see me online/around in school anymore nia mahs..
but dont worry!
i wont forget u guys!
i will drag some dowm to accompany me de!
so,
please hope youre the one being dragged down huhs!
:DD

i shall go puke again bahs..
off i go~
ciaos~

hahahas someone intro-ed me this video~
and i was hooooked!
nyahahhahahahs~
emo's the path to go!
whahahhahahahahhas!

alrights i shall go dispose of my waste thru my arse liaos~
ciaos~
=.=

im having what i dread the most AGAIN!
D-I-A-R-R-H-E-A!
crap lahs..
somemore for 2 days liaos lor!
i think food poisoning le lahs..
makes me all weak and such!
effing hate it lahs can!
feeel like vomiting but nothing to vomit out!
cos i really havent been eating much..
=.=
fuck it man..
wonder how long more this will continue on..
even if its food poisoning,
small case only bahs..
cause i kenna 6 times food poisoning b4~
^^V
lets hope..
it goes away soon alright?

but in the meantime..
i shall enjoy losing abit of weight!
even if it kills me in the process!
V(.^^) (^^,)V~

2 new must watch MVs!

xDD

big hit big hit!
NYAHAHHAHAHAHHAS!

Wonder Girls - Nobody


i want nobody, nobody but you~
so true hahas!

and and!
DBSK! mirotic~



under my skin~~
xDD





and damn my paper cuts!
wrong! cardboard cuts from all that tying of boxes..
raffia "burns" as well!! i tied the boxes too fast! hahahhahs xP

OMONA~

this is so cute rofl~



im kinda abandoning my english songs for kpop hahahas! all thanks to SOMEONE who got me hooked on bigbang.. either unintentionally or intentionally~ hahhahas~

xDD

this is kinda cute too LOL!



damn you all! im not gay! im NOT!
RAHHS!

18.09.08

went out with my long time buddy! supposed to watch the black swindler aka kurosagi one but as usual she last minute always change mind de hahahahs~ met her at 12pm at cineleisure! she's a tortoise cos she's late! xP yupps so we caught mamma mia at 1240pm! hahahas that show was nice! worth watching! all the classic ABBA songs can be heard~ but its sung by the cast from the movie lahs duhhs hehs.. so after movie.. walked around heeren abit, then go bugis street walk abit.. buddaye leo bought a tee.. i wanted to buy de, but didnt wanna touch me 50 bucks so didnt got what i want =.= yupps walked around bugis junction abit, trained down to amk's sumo house for dinner! chitchatted, walked around amk hub abit and she bus-sed home! i bus-sed home too! slept around 3+? was chatting with you know who hahahs xP ^^ hahahs yupps guess thats it bahs?





19.09.08

had work today! lols.. no effing customers for the whole afternoon! standing there like an idiot waiting for sales to come lols.. almost forgot to have lunch hahahs.. yarhs lucky at night got sales else i think i will rot whole day le.. hmmms then yupps, when i reached home, i was like hungry? then i think think think, yuan lai i havent eat dinner! i totally forgot about dinnerr LOL! i know its impossible but i did! =.= hahahs so i was complaining to dear and guess what? she did these for me! omg so touched hahahhas! love her to bits lahs! omg omg omg! xDD


CHICKEN RICE!

MAGGI MEE!

LAKSA!

ROTI PRATA!

hahahhas so cute of her can?! xD seriously lols, i think she will be the one i will forever be in love with hahahahs! xDD



alrights! i think thats it for today? i shall go do my stuffs liaos! i have work still lahs! my legs are seriously breaking apart from all that stress! T_T CIAOS!!

12/09/08! FRIDAY!

hahas that day was a fun day! cos i went ubin with my classmates and coursemates! hahahs and the one who organized this outing was me! MUAHAHHAHAHAHHAS! yupps as i couldnt really get to sleep the night before, i kinda fell asleep like 4am? and i have to wake by 6am? cos im meeting them at tanah merah mrt at 8! hahahhahs~

yupps i was the 3rd to reach? but i reached 8 am SHARP on the dot! hahahhas.. the lastest one came at 0830!! jiayin was pissed off by then as she was already waiting at the jetty at changi village! oops =X took a bus, met up with 3 others.. and boatted over.. hahs upon arriving, we took some photos, applied HONG YU! and went to rent bike! hahhas.. yupps bought mineral water at provision shop and off we went! a total of 17 turned up yupp hahas!

hahahhas as there was this forked road, we decided to head left first! hahas cycle until like mad sias.. uphill part most gave up and pushed their bikes up, including me! i wanted to save energy for later in the day hahahs! passed by that accident site! where the poor mother died after flying off her bike! some of us spooked and decided to get away from there as fast as possible! and its no wonder so many accidents were said to happen there, the steep slope and the sudden turn! who can survive that but pros? yupps.. anyways.. condolences! *silenceeeee*

yarhs so were like as far as we can go on one side liaos, and since it was a dead end, we cycled back to that "place" and rested for awhile, then headed back to starting point and had our lunch at a restaurant there.. ohya did i mention it was RAINING all the while? hahahs everyone was like wet hahahs! mud everywhere also! hehs! xDD

yarhs after charging ourselves, we continued part 2 of our trip! destination: chek jawa! hahahhas! my favourite place to go! i love the shorelife lahs! but tooo bad they didnt walk there, some idiots just refused to move their butts! rahhhhs! so missed quite alot of nice views luhhs~ T_T yarhs on the way there, it was drizzling but we didnt bother le.. about 6 of us climbed a watch tower which is taller than trees! the view is so nice lahs! hehs! yarhs cam-whored abit up there and headed back to starting point! hahahhas! as it was like almost time to be packing up and going home liaos hahas! ohya we went to this visitor house also! so nice lahs! inside got those dead shorelife specimens, a fish tank, and a pathway that leads out to the sea!!! went to the end of the pathway to enjoy the breeeze with about 9/10 of whats there and cam-whored! xD blahhs~ ohya! i spotted this dog with a bite inflicted from another dog i think.. the wound is on its neck lahs! a hole can! EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!! T_T poor thing haish~

boated back, had a sucky dinner? then bussed back home.. halfway stomach super pain! stopped at eunos, since liyan got down too, we "sneaked" inside a condo to look for toilet hahahs.. did my business and found liyan waiting for my outside! omg i feel so bad hahas.. yupps bade her farewell then i walked back opposite de busstop bussed home.. kuku 93 wait so long =.= slept on the bus and almost overslept! hahhas.. got home showered, use comp for awhile and dozed off at 12 sharp cos i promised Mak i'll be asleep by 12 and i did! miracle happened! xD guess i was too tired, thighs and but aching too! so yupps! off to dreamland i went! xP

have you ever...
been in a room so quiet..
so much so that the silence is deafening?

have you ever...
been in a crowd yet you feel all alone?
with everyone just walking past you?

have you ever...
needed something so bad..
you can't sleep at night?

have you ever...
tried to find the words..
but they don't come out right?

have you ever...
loved somebody so much..
it makes you cry?

have you ever...
found someone you're willing to give your heart to..
only to find them not giving theirs to you?

have you ever...
tried finding the words for you to stay in their hearts..
but can't come up with anything and don't know where to start from?

have you ever...
had your heart stolen by someone..
only for it to be treated as a toy?

have you ever...
felt like the whole world is crashing down on you..
and just feel like breaking down and cry?

have you ever...
cried so much..
so much so your tear ducts are dried up?

have you ever...
been played so much you don't even know yourself anymore?
so much so your heart died?

have you ever???

hurrss~ omg lahs i so wanna cry now lahhs~ sobbssssssss lahs! actually yarhs im slow lahs but.. im starting to watch 1 litre of tears! rene mei showed me a short MV about that drama~ just a short clip is enough to mess up whatever heart is there left in me lor!

its like the title says:
1 Litre Of Tears!

can make you cry buckets one lor! yarhs the determination showed by this girl named "Aya" to try "to live" even though she has this incurable disease called "Spinocerebellar Atrophy".. yarhs the neurons in her brain will just cease to function and thus cause the body to lose their functions even though the person want's to do or tries to do something..

she ends up dying at a young age of 25.. and its based on a TRUE STORY!! yarhs for further details.. just watch that freaking show lahs! confirm you wont regret one! yupps yupps! for your convenience, heres where you can find the show! http://www.instantz.net/japanese/jdrama/1_Litre_of_Tears.html hahhahahas~ enjoy~

ohkays im typing like this just to disturb mei hsin hahahahs! here goes nothing~




wa fucking sians de lor.. people holidays go out fucking enjoy themselves while i fucking stay at home and rot.. stay up late into the fucking night only to wake up late in the fucking afternoon.. few days of doing this fucking schedule is gradually turning me into some fucking couch potato! so much so that im supposed to fucking collect my fucked up lappy from the fucking service center but yet im fucking lazy to even go cook my fucking lunch! haish life is fucking boring~ blahhhs i go fucking stone the day away again lahs zzzzzz!



YAWNS!~

hahahahhas! life is fucking boring.. i so fucking hate holidays till the extent i wish it nvr fucking existed! i dont mind a day or two off this damned life for rest.. but too much and i will find it fucking irritating! if you think stoning at home for almost 1 and a half months is fun.. try it for yourself and see whether you like it or not.. jio friends out you may say.. but.. no money, working, im busy, booked liaos is all you will get as replies.. arghs so i wont bother le.. think after the UBIN trip and sentosa trip with mak mak next week, i'll be spending the rest of my life STONING away.. soo looking forward to STONING! sleeping late in the night.. only to wake up late into the afternoon.. yarhs i shall enjoy this "COLOURFUL" life of black and white :D




anyways here are some overdued pictures which i koped from joanna hahahahs!

muahhhahas.. pardon me for typing like a kuku later on in the post.. cos i made a promise with someone to type liddat hhahahhas!


yarhs as i was saying.. wo gen (me and) jas decided to blog zhe yang (like this).. yin wei (because) AUDREY MAK SHI MIN
shi zhe yang (like this) talk one! xD

hahahs.. early in the zao shang (morning), audrey morning call wo (me) wake up.. cos ta (she) scared wo hui (i'll be) late when we meet up later.. it was like 1015 in the zao shang (morning) when my dian hua (phone) rang.. so i jie (picked up) phone and answered ta (her) "orhhh", "orrrhhh" and "orhhhhs" hahahahs! yarhs after like shi tou-ing (stoning) for very long, i finally go chong liang (shower) and prepare to chu men (go out) liaos.. waited for ba shi (bus) 147 to head down to duo fo (dover) mrt station..

yarhs audrey was there deng-ing wo liaos.. ta (she) refused to come out of the station and prefer to just zuo (sit) still inside the platform area.. so wo (i) tapped in and shang qu (went up) to look for ta (her).. pei ta (accompanied her) for like 45 fen zhong (minutes) before jasmine lai (came).. yarhs then wo men (we) took the train down to duo mei ge (dhoby ghaut) station.. went golden village wanted to buy xi piao (movie tickets) for money no enough 2 de.. budden all the seats mai wan liaos (sold out already).. so we zou (walked) over to The Cathay and finally decided to watch Wall-E there.. budden something hao xiao (funny) happened again.. i lazy type this bu fen (part) so i kope from you lahs hor jas? =X

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While queuing for the tickets, AUDREY MAK asked jas to call laowang and she said:
"你在 (ni zai) where?"
"为什么你什么 (wei shen me ni shen me) movie also watch already?"
"王八蛋，你跟我 (wang ba dan, ni gen wo) faster roll down hor"
******************************************

POWDERFUL SIAS! xD yarhs then after movie go niu che shui (chinatown) walk abit.. attempting to zao (find) jasmine's lensless specs hahhas but too bad cannot find.. then jiu take bus hui jia (go home) liaos.. but at the busstop, we did something evil again hahahhas~ here goes~ sorry kope from you again =X

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Mak Mak 很(hen) pro lor. LOL LOL LOL!
jas 跟我(gen wo) keep laughing at her, then trick her.
jas even asked her...
"Mak! 你现在(ni xian zai) go where?"
And she replied....
"我现在（wo xian zai) go home"
then she realised..
"eh, no, I'm going home now"
"你们很(ni men hen) bad leh!"
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hahahhahs~ xD yarhs.. as i wanted go vivo see something.. pei audrey bus home awhile then wo jiu (i then) went vivo zou zou kan kan (walk walk see see) things.. end up dont have what im looking for so i headed home for my FENG FU de (sumptous) dinner hahahas..

yarhs i guess thats it.. typing like this can really ruin my language command.. THANKS ARHS AUDREY MAK! xD hahahhas... anyways.. Wall-E is nice.. cute and entertaining hahahs! you guys should go catch it hehs! xD

PERHAPS


perhaps..
i shall let go..
let go of this false hope i've been clinging on to..
perhaps..
i shouldnt even have felt that way in the first place..
so much so it hurts..
perhaps..
i should just give up on my effort..
the effort to love someone..
loving someone..
requires a heart..
that "heart" i've been searching for..
never came back to me!
perhaps..
my very heart has been robbed..
robbed and played with..
played and then disposed of indiscriminately..
perhaps..
i shall give up searching for my heart..
and let it just bleed to death..
perhaps..
i should just cease to exist...
and not give a fucking damn about this world..]


perhaps...