Thursday, August 21, 2008
should i give up on what im doing?
or should i say..
give up on what im trying to do?
i don't know if im doing the right thing..
i don't know if things will work out..
is it all just my wishful thinking?
i don't know..
i seriously don't know!!!
there's just so many things i wanna say..
but im afraid..
im fucking afraid!
im afraid things will turn out the way which i hate will turn out to be..
im just fucking haunted by those idiots!
they just won't go away no matter how hard i wished for them to go..
its like a constant reminder..
how awful a human heart can get..
do i even have a heart now??
i doubt myself!
guessed someone robbed me of my heart..
trampled!
stabbed!
torn!
shredded!
minced into pulp juice!
and poured down a drainage pipe!
this irreversible damage just sucks..
sucks to the core..
sucks so much i dont even know myself anymore!
the jonathan you guys are seeing aren't the real me..
the real me died long ago!
its just a front i put up..
i dont like laughing loudly..
i dont like attracting attention..
i prefer shutting myself in..
ever wondered why i shut myself with my mp3 player?
only songs can express how i feel..
only songs say what i want to say..
so fuck off if you hate music you people call OLDIES!
i don't care if im hated..
so hate me for all i care!
i wont give a shit..
this I SWEAR!
:D
oh yeah..
one more thing..
FUCK THIS
CRUEL LIFE!
=]]
Thursday, August 21, 2008
